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On 3/6/2017 at 11:31 AM, MadDoc said:

Jay, one thing you mentioned is how you appear to be very laid back to others.  I'm the same way but there's something I struggle with constantly that's part of my hppd (I think).

It's a little difficult to describe.  Each of us has a persona.  We act in a certain way around others and we may act one way around our friends and another way around someone else.  I think Ken Kesey referred to this as "social armor".  Psychedelics strip away your social armor and you can (or you think you can) *see* into other people and I used to think I could see this social armor.  What happens to me now is the little nuances of each person's persona is exaggerated.  People often seem like stereotypical used car salesman.  Little behaviors that are normally common social behaviors seem so over the top that I have difficulty communicating sometimes.  Instead I just act calm and I don't say much.  I smile a lot. 

I feel that way too.. like everyone tries too much to pick up unrealistic personas to connect and fit and seem normal.  But muy brain can't stop seeing past it.. also,  whenever I watch movies,  it's hard for my brain to accept the fake story as thought it were real(I mean,  that's how we SHOULD enjoy movies). Instead my mind is on the reality that these people are just acting and it's fake... sometimes, in a way.  I do accept the movie for what it is tho

Hi,  I myself have taken this tab called Lsa, and this was the only hallucination stuff I've ever taken.. I tried it n liked it even though the visuals were still there.. about a month later I tried it again and then smoked weed soon after. That  turned out to be the scariest trip of my life. My mind was going crazy as I looked at how colours were moving,  and patterns were everywhere,  and then when people would talk around me,  I would struggle to keep up with understanding whatever there saying. It was one of the worst things ever to Occour to me.  After the trip was done.  I could still see patterns and my mind still felt the drug.. it's calmed down a little after these 4 years, but I could still feel it's effects.. every time I look at the grass, it has these swirly pattern connections, or if I look at the tile or concrete on the ground, or patterns on the walls(just examples out of Many). My mind notices connections that forum patterns. My thoughts aren't natural anymore and it's difficult to process what people are saying to me,  or giving them a reply(I've improved on this thought over these years)... the trippy visuals that i see are best described as like. When tee lights are off and you see figures in the dark that aren't what they actually seem to be, and your mind sees it as like a monster or something,  until you turn on the light and realize what it really is, but you also realize why you seen it that way(because it's shape is similar). Well anyways,  that's how my trippy visuals are like. I see something as completely different until I concentrate or get a closer look.. another thing is that my minds thoughts don't stay still and on topic. Especially when I'm excited,  it's like my mind races around instead of being calm and thinking on topic.. if anyone can help me by giving advice, prescribing certain medications, or ANYTHING. Please let me know... p.s I don't smoke weed or anything anymore because it enhances these effects again