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kind of an old post, but yes I get this too.  It seems to be progressing.  After reading text I can look up and see the text on the wall for a second. It scares me so much  

I took a very small, small dose of molly at the last show I went to. I try to limit myself to a few beers and weed. Ironically the only problems I have after all that is an increase in my tinnitus as the show got very loud. In fact that night I felt fantastic. Unfortunately a speaker I was standing near shot some loud guitar feedback directly into my brain via my ear canal. It's been two days. Hopefully it goes away, as its a little more annoying now. Still, bearable. I generally tell people that I would never touch psychedelics again. And that much is mostly true. But it's not every day someone carries around extremely pure low doses of MDMA in their pocket. So I decided, given the circumstances I would indulge. Probably won't again. Just a nice break from having to militantly swear everything off. 

Mikezero Ive read somewhere before you drank alot and it directly made your symptoms worse and added in a few new ones.  I was doing extremely well up until last saturday night I drank maybe 6 hard alcoholic drinks maybe more.  I was fine with my visual snow and negative after images, but it has been six days since and I know have positive after images.  Like I can look at my dogs face or a phone look away and see it in full color for a split second.  Or if Im reading this text and look up I can see the text on the wall. So fucked I am scared for my life.  I hope this dies down back to baseline!  What symptoms increased for you after you drank?  And what was added...I am definitely staying clear of even alcohol at this point.

Yeah im starting to feel normal again too.  At first I hated it and thought it was going to ruin my life.  But now its stabilizing - as in the visual symptoms - it only really bothers me the most when im driving.  I get trails off lamp posts and cars leave weird ghost trails behind them.  I guess my biggest fear is that since there are "visible" brain abnormalities shown through the fact that our vision has changed, are there "invisible" brain changes that we cant see, like to parts of the brain that control heart rate, breathing, even our personalities, etc?  I fear this will cause like early onset dementia or something in our 70s.  I know I am going down the runaway train with this...but basically I hope it stays this way or gets better because I cant handle any more symptoms lol.

Miss Jess -

I totally can relate this disorder makes you start all over. It forces you to build your own self esteem up again starting from the bottom. Even though you don't want to deal with this shit it is the only way out because we can't just pretend it's not happening to us. I want to feel like my true self again, happy pretty energetic etc before I try to find a husband let alone a relationship. I feel like it wouldn't be fair to drag them down with this before I have it healed or at least in control. It sucks the situation we are forced into. It makes your reevaluate life on another level.

Ihaveseenevil -

Hi my names Tina. Did your hppd come on right away or did it happen a couple months later? Mine didn't show up until like 5 months after last use. I used mdma =\ but basically I have all the symptoms and it's been almost 5 months for me too.

hi - newbie, about four months in and it hit me 6 months post using mdma.  Should've done my research before trying heavy drugs.  Festivals and edm music give me such anxiety now its ridiculous!

Rene, I have read about your success with Keppra and was able to get a prescription from my general doctor.  Psychiatrist wants me on Seroquel and as I've read, it doesn't seem like it will help.  I can't exactly read the study you posted above though.  Can you elaborate on your treatment with keppra?  Do you have the generic or brand name...I wonder if it matters.  I would really appreciate the help!