NamelessUser

I can provide some first hand experience. My grandma's sister just literally died. In the three years I've lost a brother and a sister. It is trouble-some. Enough to know that I want to keep living. Because after death- there really is nothing. 

But on the flip side, I love the feeling of death. Yes it sounds insane. I was suicidal for a long time, and my preferred way to cope was to cut off the oxygen and blood through my neck. I would fade away, and I would feel okay. I'm guessing it is something similar to what someone shooting up heroin feels like. Now that I've gotten help, that whole idea sounds insane, but at the time it was relief. I was stepping over the ledge.

All I can say is, that because of death - we have life. You have many more lessons to learn. Let death take you when it's your time. Are you the type of guy to get up and walk out in the middle of movie, or do you stay till the end no matter what?

yes, be honest. it will help you in the long run.

You just have to slow and breathe. You don't always have to comprehend everything. If this occurs during a conversation I could see where that would become troublesome. I just causally be like, "hold up, slow down."

There are hundreds of miles between you and the earths core, which is where this magnetic field is generated. A half inch of rubber isn't going to do much.

Howdy. 

I really like what Jay threw your way. 

The body is a system, which needs to be well maintained and balanced in order to function properly. I advice deprivation, before medication. I think medication is great, but you have to first fix your intake of all nutrients before you can begin to observe any effect. I have no prior knowledge of you, I am simply speaking from experience.

I can attest to the intensity of dreams when THC or CBD is not present in the body. It's nice to have amazing dreams again. I havn't smoked in a week, but I was a HEAVY user.

Great to hear you are doing better! Remember the key to nutrition is balance- supplements included. Also exercise works wonders.

Don't write on a message board if you don't want replies. I wasn't telling you you made bad choices. I was telling you that it would be wise to learn from your choices- albeit good or bad. 

And sorry buddy, but you do not know your future. All we control is the present.

Great job on the reduction of benzo's!! 

As far as the closed eye visuals, they are pretty common. You just have an active brain or imagination. The thoughts I get sometimes are out of this world!

Quite the eccentric vocabulary you use! Remember, we all have troubles to overcome. Work with the circumstance you are in; not with what you went through. You reacted in a manner you deemed appropriate. Now that you have grown, you realize that you would possibly make different choices. Just remember that when it comes to future choices.