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My friends have also posted pictures from Wakarusa, they're definitely spun! It makes me more sad than anything, i don't want them to end up like me. I do get jealous too, i use to have so much fun on phish summer tour during the late '90's. Those were my anti-psychedelic days, i just smoked pot. I had a very bad trip in '94 at a dead show. That trip was the beginning of my hppd. Back then i hadn't even heard of hppd. Stupidly i got back into psychedelics in 2009. I didn't know how bad my symptoms were until i got completely sober Feb 2011. I'm still sober over fifteen months, but i still feel like i'm half tripping, it's not easy. It definitely could be a quirk in our brains, who can say for sure. I have done A lot of strong lsd.

I find myself slipping into that mode often. It is definitely something that really bothers me. I try hard not to dwell on it, but it always cycles back. Things would definitely be easier if i wasn't half tripping all the time! We all must stay strong!!