iwasnineteen

drinking is the only thing i do, except now it is not fun all the time, i have to be in the right environment. kind of like how smoking is for most people. but i can't drink too much because my dr kicks in, but at the same time i don't care about it as much because it's like, hey you're drunk, whateverr. one thing i do not like to do is drink before bed, harder to sleep!

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did your parents have too take care of you for your first few months at all too, following that first week? i'm feeling very needy..

Great topic.

Well my parents had to take care of me for a week pre HPPD since i took some speed (nasty drug, only did it once and im glad) at the time when i dropped that bad ecstasy that gave me HPPD. I couldn't take the WD of the speed, well it wasn't proper WD since i i only did it once but i had tremendous anxiety. So they new bout my drug use. I thought they would not understand but they never blamed me for anything. I guess they sorta just accepted it all and wasn't surprised that something else came out of it. Of course, at that time no one new that it was HPPD but that was clear later in the process with docs.

I do not know your situation with your parents but i think the only way is to be serious and say that you made a mistake and now going threw some difficult times that is hard to explain. If they are good parents they will appreciate your honesty more then being angry for a mistake in your youth. My father read up on HPPD on some papers i gave him and he understood more what was going on.

i was wondering if you guys could share some tips on how to get through the mornings everyday? i've noticed when i sleep in late it's nothing but bad news

i think people are in empty cars sometimes

yes, unfortunately, it is. i was going to visit my boyfriend early in the morning to make breakfast with him. i had left my orange juice in his fridge over night in a thermis, so i finished it. even after he saw me drink it he didn't tell me he put something in there so i could have at least mentally prepared for it. turns out it was some reeeaallly bad acid.. :'( it's not fair but what can i do now? i'm a good person that didn't deserve this

let's do it!

anyone else develop hppd because someone dosed you without you knowing? also, how long after your last trip did you develop it?

i would cry and go fall in love with the world again and laugh and cry some more i' m 19 and have this because my boyfriend dosed me, i don't deserve this. noone does.