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Hi I've had hppd for 8 years now. I'm 26 now, I had experienced multiple trips on acid and mushrooms when I got it. I never freaked out on the trips i had. In fact the trip that that noticed symptoms after was a mediocre one hit acid trip. My symptoms consist of snow, slight shifting of wall patterns, afterimages and trails.I don't have flashbacks or dp/dr I discontinued use of hallucinogens but continued to smoke cannabis daily.I also had a few amazing ketamine experiences with no increase in visuals about 6 months after symptoms appeared. I also took a small hit of pure crystalline dmt, also without any significant increase. After that it was just daily cannabis, symptoms slowly diminished over time to become less noticeable within a year or two . Two and a half years after getting it I took a year long hiatus from cannabis due to unrelated reasons. During the hiatus I didn't record changes in symptoms, so overall effect of the hiatus is unknown. I resumed using cannabis with slight increase in visuals, yet not significant enough to quality of life. About 4 years ago I had the opportunity to use ecstacy, since then I've had around 25 mdma experiences. Visual symptoms increase during the experience and fade a day or two after, but they had not troubled me until a high dose experience. After using 8 tablets(prob cut with meth)and a 250 mgs of mdma in a 12 hour period and not getting a good sleep. I noticed a significant increase in visual the next day. This was disconcerting and caused me to question my use, I took a hiatus to figure out if i could ever do molly again, luckily the symptoms returned to baseline in two months During the past year I used large amounts of Nitrous without any increase in symptoms. At the same time started to use low doses ( 1st and 2nd plateau) DXM in conjuction with my nitrous to reach deep dissociative states. I have not had any change in symptoms from dissociative use. Even when I am in states of dissociation involving hallucinations of a realistic nature, more crazy than anything I ever saw on acid. it is strange though the visuals on dissociatives are open eye it is almost as if my vision tunnels or blacks out before I have these intense deep visual states. The past year I have used molly on a monthly basis sometimes using as much as a half gram on a few occasions, usually just a few rolls though. I have also been using the nitrous and DXM about every other month or so, and smoking high quality bud daily. I don't know why the drugs haven't made symptoms worse, and even when they did( high dose) increase they diminished after a month or so. At some point ( I think sometime before or after my year long cannabis hiatus) patterns no longer shifted even when I tried to make visuals occur. I do have anxiety issues and definately believe that the more one thinks about it the more symptoms occur, I believe that reading about hppd the day after my acid trip probably contributed to it. After reading many of the posts on here I feel blessed for the experiences I can have. At the same time it hurts to see others suffer an not be able to connect, those experiences that I miss dearly, that connection to the alternate reality. Most times I just accept that I will never be able to take acid, shrooms, or dmt, yet recently I have been tempted by dmt. Has anyone ever had their symptoms stay the same even when taking new drugs and using regularly? The thing I am concerned with most is the visuals getting worse, i.e. I wouldn't want to have trouble driving or reading. If my symptoms never increased from this point I would be pretty happy. I just wondered if anyone else is like this, had symptoms decrease or took a break and returned to drugs without increase.