Left this forum. Found another medical cause, on the road to recovery.

[Alain]

Left this forum. Found another medical cause, on the road to recovery.

Edited November 5, 2024 by Alain

[cosmiccharlie]

Hi Alain, 

     I'm sorry to hear about your struggles (your English is fine by the way, very clear).  I would try and remain calm and know that you're doing everything you can to get better.  Try to minimize the time spent researching on the internet as I have found this to be primarily a creator of anxiety.  If you do have HPPD the best solution in my opinion is to learn the most effective way of managing your anxiety because as you probably have experienced, anxiety and HPPD symptoms are very much connected.  There are very practical ways to manage anxiety on your own and I tell everyone the same remedy that worked for me: 

• Stop all drugs, even alcohol for a while.
• Take it one day at a time, try not to think about the past or future just be here now. 
• Keep yourself busy with healthy, productive things; hobbies, work, etc...
• Exercise even if it makes your symptoms worse
• Do the best you can to not focus on HPPD; minimize time spent online looking into it and time thinking about it (this tends to generate anxiety which is not helpful for us) 
• Try not to feel guilty, you didn't ask for this.
• Try learning to meditate, even if it's just for a minute or two.  We all have the ability to go inward for strength and healing.  For example, you can spend 30 seconds or a minute sitting and noticing your breath and thinking the following: 

1. when I breath in I notice I am breathing in
2.  when I breath out I notice that I am breathing out and I smile because I am alive. 

It's that simple!

• Try and get as much sleep as you can.  
• If you're open to it, pray to God in whatever way you think is appropriate.  You don't even have to believe in anything, just ask for help and see what happens.  I personally believe that we all possess a spring of internal strength that we can call upon.  

Your life is not over and recovery is always possible we just have to let it happen.  Over time, things will get better but try not to ask yourself daily "am I better or worse today?".  You'll find that recovery happens over the span of months and is hard to notice day to day; think of physical growth when you were a child.  Hang in there.  If you'd like to chat on WhatsApp send me a DM. 

 

Take Care,

Nick 

[Jay1]

Hi Alain, this does indeed sound like HPPD. 

It's good to hear that you have now stopped taking drugs, this is the most important step on the road to recovery. It also sounds like the support network in Netherlands is good. Finding people who know what HPPD is must be reassuring. 

Cosmic's advice is very good, so I don't have much to add.... but I hope your treatment goes well and just know that a lot of people do recover from this!

Please keep us updated. 

Regards, Jay

[AF44]

Hi Alain,

Don’t be scared. When I first got HPPD it was horrible. I panicked from the derealization-that was almost, if not more, horrible than the visual stuff. Ironically, panic creates more derealization! The symptoms will eventually lessen. I think it’s great that you have the DR therapist and the intake for the group. I also have an anxiety disorder. I think it’s a vicious circle, the anxiety aggravates the HPPD symptoms, and then the symptoms cause great anxiety, ‘round and ‘round she goes. Keep us updated!!!