jdacosta Posted March 10, 2012 Report Share Posted March 10, 2012 I developped HPPD last year during a rave. Took way too much exctasy, 1 speed + 4 E total in 12 hours (I was a regular roller, something like 1x/2weeks so I started to need a little more for a good buzz(4E was overkill and stupid). I'm a non-smoker, and I was new to the rave scene, popped my first chemical drug ever like 3 months before that overdose. So, no prior experience at all. I dont really know what actually happened, when my 4th pill kicked in, it was like i wasn't touching the ground, i couldn't control my body but my mind was all present(I could hear my girlfriend screaming for help..). Then I started shaking from everywhere just like an epilepsy attack for 20 seconds. Then it stopped, and I felt fine or more like high as fuck (like nothing ever happened) and I kept partying until the end. Next morning, nothing special, usual hangover from the speed. The day after, heard voices in my head while trying to sleep, happened only once. Then, I was fine for a week, 0 effects, like nothing happened, and suddenly... panic attacks, anxiety attacks, static, visual, waking up in the middle of the night out or breath, feeling like im outside my body. I couldnt drive, go to public place, watch TV, read books, etc.. worst period of my life It tooks 4-5 months for the panic, anxiety, dr, halos to go away. Since September, I only have some visuals and they only get worse when I lack sleep or before my exam sessions, but its very bearable and I learned to live with it. I get drunk maybe once a week and I dont have any problems, even when I drink a lot and have the worst hangovers the next morning. That's about it for my story, I consider it a recovery since I can do everything I was doing before (except drugs ) And that brings me to my next question: I'm still in the rave scene, EDM music means a lot to my life, and I still want to attend raves. I tried sober rave, and it was nice but the feeling wasnt the same. I dont want to take any speed or mdma (I might consider small dose of pure MDMA if anyone has experienced it). I'm considering: 1. Going for caffeine pills, maybe 3x 200mg and party from 11:30pm to 10am 2. small dose of pure mdma (not sure about that) 3. green pills ( http://greenpartypills.com/ ) the safest bet for me would be the caffeine pills, but I dont think it would be enough. the green pills sounds great, but I dont know if they'll make HPPD worse since they give same effect than speed/MDMA. don't really wanna go mdma route, but if someone tried a small dose and only made HPPD not that much worse, I'd give it a shot since my symptoms arent that bad at all. (Of course, I'm aware it's taking a huge risk and that I should never roll again, but if I get lots of replies saying very small dose of pure MDMA had no after effects, i'd give it a shot) Need some advices on high cafeine intake, green pills, experience with small doses of pure MDMA Thank you for reading Jonathan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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