cosmiccharlie Posted August 10, 2018 Report Share Posted August 10, 2018 (edited) So I'm very glad to have found this site; when people come together to support eachother the results can be incredible. Sometimes just expressing yourself can help you. I am almost 29, had a strong romp with psychedelics from 18-20 during which I probably consumed 60 hits of LSD, had at least 20 mushroom trips, smoked PCP once, countless salvia trips and a few DMT glimpses. Plus smoking weed almost everyday during that period. At the time I had just started college and was studying mathematics; my mind was very promising for understanding and seeing things a little differently. I grasped everything almost immediately, didn't really have to take notes and loved helping people who were struggling. All the while I was a huge pot head; I would tutor people in math and then smoke them up. Things were pretty good. I had slowed down on the psycs as well as I had met an amazing woman who would later become my wife; still is. Anyway the summer between freshman and sophomore year I ate a 5 strip of acid at a festival, freaked out started climbing the fence that enclosed the area and was taken to the hospital. I came to while they were taking blood tripping very hard. That was the second to last time I did acid. From then on I had the classic symptoms of HPPD, not just from the one 5 strip but everything I think caught up. So I stopped, weed seemed to exasperate it so I cut back and things really did get better. I got into meditation, started focusing more on school and did very well. Ultimately I joined the Navy and was commissioned at an officer after I graduated, (3.7 GPA with math). Just before I graduated and was commissioned I made the terrible mistake of hitting a blunt with SPICE. STAY THE FUCK AWAT FROM SYNTHETIC WEED!!! This really rocked me, I threw up, blacked out and the next day I didn't feel right. This 'feeling of being off' lasted a very long time; I don't know when it left however it did eventually leave thank God. But the crazy thing was I had to now start my 5 years in the Navy with feeling slow and not myself. I didn't mention that I signed up for submarine service! The next five years were crazy, I had to stop smoking because I was getting drug tested and I think that helped. Stared drinking a lot more but all in all it was okay, miserable and definitely would have been easier if I hadn't smoked the spice (fucking hate that shit). Anyway I finished my service (loved the fact that I had a little know secret of having eaten 15 hits of acid and had the responsibility of supervising nuclear power plant operations or standing submerged officer of the deck; my fellow bubble heads will appreciate this). I had always wanted to get a PhD in math, so when I got out I applied and was accepted. After getting out I had started smoking weed again and then eventually ate mushrooms. I hadn't tripped in 8 years at that point. I then proceeded to have 7 mushroom trips in 7 weeks (not intentional) tripped on ayahuasca and ate 1/4 tab. I had actually purchased 2 ten strips (one for me one for my friend) with the intention of tripping a few times. Thank God I threw them both out after my buddy and I tripped on shrooms together. Anyway my HPPD is back and I'm about to start PhD level mathematics and my 6 year track to the doctorate. My thinking is a little distorted and I feel slower than I did a few months ago. But my mind is telling me to keep tripping!! I bought a San Pedro cactus last week thinking maybe it would help. I don't know I'm very worried about fucking my life up. I'm on the edge of living my dream and I still want to explore the psychedelic realm. Everything is going so well and I seem to be the one standing in the way of myself. I gained a lot from these trips I believe, I think I traded some intelligence (hopefully temporarily) for compassion. Anyway that's me, let me know what you guys think. I hope I can help you as well. Take care. Edited February 16 by cosmiccharlie Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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