Missjess Posted February 21, 2014 Report Share Posted February 21, 2014 I just wana say that I don't even have full on hppd mayb only very mild, but after reading what some of you go through and the symptoms I can't believe you endure it and get through it and cope. In all honesty I don't think I would be strong enough to handle something like that!!! It's sounds like a fuking nightmare and horror movie. So congrats to all of u hppders who have endured and continued to live your life whilst having hppd you are very brave! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 "Bad times teaches a naked woman how to spin fabric" or something like that goes a proverb in my country. I felt the bravest when I told those psychiatrists in the face that they could sod off. Haha, I was´nt mean but told them they have no clue!!! Damn quacks... I love them for their ignorance, what else can I do??? But there were some friendly people who would listen to me but they had nothing to offer me. Before we get some genius going with a new fortune telling solution I think nobody will get it! Though we are not lost cases, just wallowing in limbo searching for the ultimate health now when we think we are sick. I´m glad some of you have some results with medications but I´ve been disappointed so sorry for my venting. Keep up everybody. I´m glad I could keep a positive attitude when in the face of so much arrogance . I´m about to become a soldier now hehehe. Whatever weather meets me I shall not complain. In the face of my enemy I shall not despair. Truth is my weapon now. I´m responsible for what I did to others and myself and will be kind as best as I can. I will no longer supplicate to my doctor because I know his head is not above mine. I will respect my psychologist even if she´s just another pretty face with 6 years at uni and nothing wise to say. I will not bear any grudges and live modestly. I don´t hate anybody!!! C´ya. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr.50's Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 The only think that keeps me going is the belief that when it all goes away, I'll be 10 times happier than before, get to feel normal, and smoke weed again. If it wasn't for that I would've offed myself awhile ago. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 "Bad times teaches a naked woman how to spin fabric" or something like that goes a proverb in my country. May I ask what country that would be? We have an identical saying in Denmark. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 The only think that keeps me going is the belief that when it all goes away, I'll be 10 times happier than before, get to feel normal, and smoke weed again. Seriously? When this drug-induced disorder goes into remission, what you want to do is take drugs? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 22, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 Mr.50"s I agree with StateOfRegret ....probly not a good idea if u recover to touch drugs again especially weed which is well known to induce dissociation and derealization Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mr.50's Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 No I would wait a few years and just dabble in pot occasionally. Pot does nothing to my symptoms to Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 I like the fact that you posted that at 4:20 (in my timezone at least). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hppd33 Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 Hey missjes. What do you mean with dissocation?? That weird feeling you dont know where you are? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 May I ask what country that would be? We have an identical saying in Denmark. It´s Norway. Ryge den fede sgu lige det vad... Hey, is Christiania still in effect? A long time since I was there enjoying the "you know". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 It´s Norway. Ryge den fede sgu lige det vad... Hey, is Christiania still in effect? A long time since I was there enjoying the "you know". Haha, good to know. Whereabouts in Norway? I live in Copenhagen, but I am with my family on Fyn at the moment. But yeah, Christiania still exists, and weed is still sold openly all over. However, it isn't as cozy (hyggeligt ) as it used to be, since our previous (right wing) government decided to instate a "task force" and devised a "zero tolerance policy" with regards to cannabis. This has of course led to nothing good; cannabis is still being sold, but instead of being sold by a few hippies it is not being sold by unscrupulous, and often violent, criminals. I remember sitting down and smoking with a group of Norwegians a few years ago. It was quite funny; they thought that the weed was so amazingly cheap, and of course they over-indulged Well, that was back then. I wouldn't touch the stuff with a ten-foot pole now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted February 22, 2014 Report Share Posted February 22, 2014 Whereabouts in Norway? cannabis is still being sold, but instead of being sold by a few hippies it is not being sold by unscrupulous, and often violent, criminals. Right outside of Oslo, a dark viking I am. :-) Too bad with the criminals, hope they do not destroy the place. So you´re sober of the whacky stuff, maybe it´s for the better if you have HPPD. I hardly smoked in years, but do I smoke these days. Cheers. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 23, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 23, 2014 Hey missjes. What do you mean with dissocation?? That weird feeling you dont know where you are? No ur referring to derealization ... Dissociation is where u feel detached from urself and emotions, and body. In the drug induced dissociation I'm experiencing it's extremely severe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hppd33 Posted February 23, 2014 Report Share Posted February 23, 2014 Isnt tht the same s depersonalisation? I have also have no feelings at all, no love, happiness, only anger,frustation and anxiety Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 23, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 23, 2014 Well yeah it is but I have it to the absolute extreme with hppd added to it I feel no anxiety tho Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gill Posted February 24, 2014 Report Share Posted February 24, 2014 I think we are Obsessive-Compulsive. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 24, 2014 Report Share Posted February 24, 2014 I think we are Obsessive-Compulsive.You've been advancing this view in a lot of threads lately. What exactly do you mean? I'm sure some people focus too much on their symptoms, but are you implying that HPPD is a product of obsessive behaviour? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gill Posted February 24, 2014 Report Share Posted February 24, 2014 You've been advancing this view in a lot of threads lately. What exactly do you mean? I'm sure some people focus too much on their symptoms, but are you implying that HPPD is a product of obsessive behaviour? No, it's a product of drugs. What fuels it, amplifies it, and keeps it going is obsessional thinking/behavior. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 No, it's a product of drugs. What fuels it, amplifies it, and keeps it going is obsessional thinking/behavior. It's pretty hard to ignore...but even if u did ignore it wud still be there...so what u say isn't true at all... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gill Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 It's pretty hard to ignore...but even if u did ignore it wud still be there...so what u say isn't true at all... Not true? Interesting.. I used to obsess about Hppd everyday. Constantly checking to see if my perception is better. Now I don't. And, it's improved. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hppd33 Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Gill i had this today with my VS Ididnt remember seeing it today.. so i checked a couple of hourse a go pure to see if its gone. Well its still there yeah Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Not true? Interesting.. I used to obsess about Hppd everyday. Constantly checking to see if my perception is better. Now I don't. And, it's improved.Please gill, stop generalizing your own story to fit every HPPD-sufferer. That's just silly. Also, you keep assuming causation where only correlation is present for certain. Edit: I'm not contesting that 'relaxing' about the symptoms is important I'm just saying that there is no evidence that it actually changes the symptoms in the long run. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gill Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Gill i had this today with my VS Ididnt remember seeing it today.. so i checked a couple of hourse a go pure to see if its gone. Well its still there yeah Then checking doesn't help, does it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Well I'm kinda new to this hppd crap so it's kinda hard for me! But u know what I have improved...initially I wanted to fuking hanging myself and had to refrain from the intrusive thoughts for about a week ...now I am doing normal tasks with much difficulty and not laying as much attention but it's real hard not to when I feel extremely fuked up every second of everyday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gill Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Not trying to downplay how difficult it may be. I basically felt mentally insane for awhile with Hppd, and DP/DR on top of it! All I'm saying is it is possible to come out. Actually, it's better to get out of DP/DR first, which if done makes Hppd seem much less encompassing. It's the dissociation with things that can really make one feel trapped in their own mind and perceptions Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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