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Hey everyone !

I am a  21 years old french guy who now have HPPD since 2 and a half months, who has been induced by a wild Methylone trip triggered by a very large dose of it.

This trip included very realistic and vivid hallucinations during 10 hours.

Since then, I have visual snow, little sparkles of light dancing around, some purple going out of nowhere, after-images.
Not visuals but disturbing too are the sleep paralysis, out of body experiences, anxiety, panic attacks...

I stopped caffeine since it gave me thoughts that doesn't sound like mine and stopped alcohol too.

Visuals might get better with time, during the day when I'm outside I'm noticing nothing at all. Things get pretty bad when I lack of sleep though, so I'm very careful with this.

I'm on this forum to seek advices... Hope I'll read you soon.

Sorry for the mistakes, take care

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Welcome!

Don't take hppd33's gallows humor too seriously ;-) - you have not had HPPD for very long, there is every reason to think that you will recover. Also, there has been some success treating HPPD with various medications.

 

I feel for you wrt the anxiety. I too suffer from frequent panic attacks - easily the most disturbing part of the experience!

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Ok, I'll try to :)

 

Yes, I will try to get some Sinemet soon and hope for the best. If it doesn't work I'll go with SSRIs to try to get a relief...

 

Panic attacks suck, I didn't know when people were talking about them that they were that violent and leaving you with this feeling of being on the edge with the fear of falling into another one every second. I'm lucky that they are less frequent now.

 

I had to deal with anxiety way before my HPPD, just being with people make me cringe, but now I get this when the light is flashing really fast in my eye that's pretty much the worst; it doesn't seem that someone else got this symptom though.

 

Hope you're going to be better

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Panic attacks suck, I didn't know when people were talking about them that they were that violent and leaving you with this feeling of being on the edge with the fear of falling into another one every second. I'm lucky that they are less frequent now.

No, I was surprised as well. They really are surreal. Pure unadulterated otherworldly dread!

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I had panic attacks that literally sent me running into busy intersections to escape their horror. With the panic attacks came acute LSD symptoms. Even though I was in a perpetual state of "light trip" when I had the panic attacks it was like full blown LSD peak. My body would be melting into the sidewalk, peoples voices somehow sounded distant while paradoxically "inside my head". The trees, bushes and the wind would be sadistically whispering gibberish. This would often last a full thirty minutes until I would feel "ok". I was a sixteen year old kid with no one to turn to. No one knew I was suffering. Couldn't tell my family. When these flashbacks would happen I would spend the rest of the day crying and contemplating suicide completely shooken up from the expereince. I had it bad man. That was almost 20 years ago. I can tell you that I got better. Like it never happened.

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