Saber44 Posted August 1, 2011 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2011 Dropping by to give a quick update. Yesterday was 7 weeks clean. I thought at one point I might have seen a miniscule amount of improvement, but I think the medicine Im on (pramipexole) has made it worse. About a year and a half ago my doctor caught wind of an event that would have me labeled with "drug-seeking behavior" so I am unlikely to ever get any real help when I need it. I haven't been able to sleep properly for 5 months now and instead of giving me some sleeping medication or a benzo so that I can sleep like a normal human being, I get this restless leg syndrome medication that does not do shit except give me random pains, anxiety, and nightmares Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gill Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 sometimes I'll get bad insomnia and, I have to force myself to sleep since I'm working the next day, and I'll take melatonin. works better than any stupid sleeping med. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HBB Posted August 5, 2011 Report Share Posted August 5, 2011 I mostly agree with what Jay said. I was fucking retarded enough to do shrooms after getting hppd initially from my one usage of LSD (but like a pro, I took 5 hits being a complete irresponsible dumbass). I quit all psyhodelics as of three years ago tomorrow, but that was out of necessity. It took almost no willpower, because the experience of weed was like a more intense HPPD experience. The tricky thing about your situation, its that changing habits over a very short time is not psychologically sound. People almost always rebound. It's why diet's almost always fail. It's called "shaping" (changing a habit). However, you also risk your next roll or trip to be the one that fucks your shit up beyond what you can conceive of. So your choice is stop that shit immediately, or taper of gradually and risk it getting worse. I only did LSD one time and got hppd. Did shrooms like 4 times, and only tripped on one occassion. So genetics have a huge roll in who can withstand psychedelics and who gets crushed by them like I did. Like Jay said, there is something to be envious of there. I will never be the musician I was when I would smoke weed. I did drugs for the insight as well, not to mention being high as shit was quite pleasurable. Also consider the ramifications of just keeping doing drugs. Where will your life go, even if hppd never gets worse? Like the pink floyd song, time can pass you bye without you even realizing they shot the starting gun. My honest opinion is to GET THE FUCK OFF IT ALL IMMEDIATELY TODAY. This may not be possible for you, as you of course aren't motivated like I was, because your hppd is mild. But if you want more visceral stories of hell, I can give them to you, and you will not have dreamed of the ways your psyche can be torn to shreds. I just deleted some stories of some shit that happened to me, because they are more heinous than i am willing to share at the moment. But if you want me to share them, I will. You do not want this. You do not want what I went through, or what many of us on here went through/are going through. If you have mild hppd, cash your fucking chips in, be grateful for the insight and majesty psychedelics have provided you with, and leave the fucking table, bro. People never leave the casino until they are broke as shit and literally have to leave. That's what happened ot me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saber44 Posted August 6, 2011 Author Report Share Posted August 6, 2011 Well. Like I said, I have been clean nearly 8 weeks now, but I would like to hear your stories anyways. And Gill yeah, I tried melatonin for awhile. I seemed to build a tolerance to it. before I gave up I was taking 10mg a night. I just got some chinese herbal medicine (Gui Pi Wan) and I am giving that a shot Shit sucks. I really miss the rave scene. MDMA is such a magical substance Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
John Smith Posted August 12, 2011 Report Share Posted August 12, 2011 Well. Like I said, I have been clean nearly 8 weeks now, but I would like to hear your stories anyways. And Gill yeah, I tried melatonin for awhile. I seemed to build a tolerance to it. before I gave up I was taking 10mg a night. I just got some chinese herbal medicine (Gui Pi Wan) and I am giving that a shot Shit sucks. I really miss the rave scene. MDMA is such a magical substance Valerian Root really helped me passout in the beginning man, helped my anxiety too, id give that a try...although eventually i was poppin em during the day, and i guess i built a tolerance to it as well, but it did help me quite substantially for a few months...placebo or not, who gives a fuck...be careful though, because if youre very tired theyll put you right awake... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saber44 Posted August 19, 2011 Author Report Share Posted August 19, 2011 I did a sleep study and a nap study and was diagnosed with narcolepsy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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