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#thefastestscriptinglanguageisyournativebbhmskskbr @linkedin.... ombligo!! love to hate sounding oversaid, overdone and totally careless about it. The truth is always there before you in front of your eyes, giving you a rhetoric demonstration of itself nomatter what else there is or be to it, and nomatter if your an idiot or Einstein trying to boil it down to an equation because it was the most universal conversion of truth, it's quite before your eyes, every single evil is as true as a mouth less female symbol or a color or a star or a characture or a symbol or however you pronounce it, pray i am not the first to tell you this, universal gods and stories that you already know and know the bad meaning and good meaning of every part of the dialect to the core of your being as it burns inside you nomatter what winds freeze yourself in place for eternity as you wear the crown of the devils true comedy. theres horrible rhetoric and public announcements/denouncements just to seem useless and if anyone cares anymore. the symbology of Harvard students doing satanic rituals in public. and why i dont give a fuck if youy know who i am or not i SAY THIS!! Freebase Datura<totse>\/<Zok> use a base to prepare leaves, extract <via> nonpolar, solvents, till crystalline, cook crack, i wont give any more details this used to be an easy way to nonbr, lets just say that I have always subscribed to many things that will always force fire with love, life, liberty, and eveyrone does!!!!!!!!!! if you know what a crack bong beez used for then you know you dont smoke out of it and you know what solvent to use from mother nature, "proff that god loves us and wants us to be happy". there are many things everyone sees does and knows everyday carefully always look at how things ae spelt and at things that they sound or look like and you will always be able to follow this path forever. Bark Bark BArk Bark of a endangered root tree may make you money and at what cost to the world, bigger difference unless you can consider unnatural natual selection a true form of genetics or not, I love the systems and f<t>akes you can create with simulation, and deniable credibility. i mean why is quagmire proud to be patient zero, and why does god know he can handle the raw deal and infect himself with literally eveything known or kill everyone with it. mother nature and father time know why the satanist the decrees the deed must die first or overindulge or otherwise be immor<t?>al to sustain the truth. and if you really have NO idea what i say and why i say it here you are sadly domesticated. uncommon commonness is a true rarity, benidict arnold was not a traititor to the true elite as many would say, just burned the candle at all sides. THERES SCHOOLS that have withstood for thousands of years without the need for walls through oral tradition and symbology, in any and all known available translations and even the smartest and dumbest of GODS creations will always point out the traits and factors needed to teach that. Nomatter who you are you arte more than what you do and say feel or think" ' ' ' " true time knows that the box is flawed by its limits when questioning the study of common truths in life and wether or not theres a cat in it or beer or whatever quantum analogy you would like to place here. GREETZ BIIA I am lucky to know your flaws and sins and do them myself, tl;dr

Ok, About a week ago a friend bought "acid" that was manufactured in the south east part of the United States. It was called "cdhc" and when I talked to the "cook" about it he explained that he didn't know exactly what it was because he was trying to stay a step ahead of the law by ordering un-watched/un-banned chemicals and that it was a lysergic acid with a cyclohexanol instead of a diethylamine. I was lead to believe that this person also did work with synthetic cannabinoids and was attempting to do "research" by using reagents from JWH synths in lysergic and indole molecules. I ate 2 hits on a perforated blotter with art on one side, the taste was similar to the metallic non-taste of real good acid, but there was a bitter chlorine like aftertaste, this alarmed me a bit and then after onset I was told that there could be mescaloids on the paper instead/or mixed with the LS-cyclohexanol. The onset was quick, felt it in 15 mins, Lots of Intense colors and black and white patterns tessellating. Similar to 25-I, But a lot less dirty. The Comeup and the first 3 hours were the most intense visually, similar to shrooms or 25-i, but totally lacking in the "Mental Breakthrough" aspect that normally comes with a good trip, although there was a lot of very interesting things happening around me(social chaos lol). After about 3 hours the trip just kinda totally stopped visually but I still felt different. for the next ~7 hours I felt a sort of "afterglow" but it was more like being spun and tired than the usual afterglow. Drinking and smoking pot during this period did make the trip come back but finally there was some psychological insight and introspective thought.. I wrote some poems and thought about where I am going with my life(still no clue). I love LSD-25, ALD-52, and PRO-LAD respectively, but This RC, which could very well have been lysergic. I have no love for. It was more of a mental hinderance than an unlocking, and not in the way that mescaline can be so. more like a deliquent than a teacher. 25-I Is horrible too. yea sure it makes you trip real hard, but was that ever the point? and a girl I know used to eat 25-I regularly and now she has parkinsons from it, she has more than once described hppd like symptoms from using 25-I aswell, noting she did not have any such visual disturbances before those years. The L tastes Chlorinated, //<WTF??? The Molly tastes Fluoridated, //the mellowest molly i've ever had! Is the govt doing another Czech-25 bullshit? or are the cooks in this area just stupid... I mean these are the same guys that cook a lot of america's synthetic cannabinoids. What is going on in the legislature changing the quality and availability? Please voice your opinion on any or all of this rant. has anyone else heard of any of this nonsense?

yea I wish I could quit smokin weed for just that reason alone, I really need to get back to writing my book lol.

Im just a poor kid in college, but yea I am writing a book about hppd, its a fiction but there are alot of real events in it. since i Quit smoking weed and started on choline/piracetam my static has cut in half! (I still take hallucinogens regularly too!) lately i have been in a much better place mentally and I think that prolly helps, to be honest i have had HPPD so long it isn't even what bothers me in my day to day life anymore, i'm much more worried about getting the bills paid and finishing my reports/homework on time, girls, to be totally honest the only girl I ever really loved has HPPD and i believe this was the case because I related to her the best, I felt like she understood what it is like and that mattered alot back when it impacted my life. I still have DP/DR and all of my different visuaL aspects, but its like been 13 years scince that began so I barely let it through my thoughts, been having lots of lucid dreams again(weed ruined that for me for a long time)EVERY NIGHT is like living a whole nother' life, I still have visuals in my dreams though lol, went on a meth binge not too long ago... This forum changed alot, But I have nothing but love and empathy for anyone who still feels that this "disorder" makes them "suffer", and to all who are new and still feel overwelmed, try to change your perception about your altered perception. It really does help. I wish you all nothing but good fortune.

i havent been hre in a while, just seein who still posts here. this was a good place. i have respect for it. hppd. i miss talking to lotta you, made me feel like there was something i could relate to. still no cure here but i havent been lookin to tell you the truth. been livin good how i wants bout it.so yea praise be to lol and a howlin goodmorning to everyone i dont know.. miss yall old ppl. U know

there are things i could say here, other than my general disbilief, how things have chaqnged in this existance, i miss all o yall reall hppders, now please just exist and get past all that stupid dp/dr. I personally go for empty. I want to tell you about the time i decided to mutiliate my brain because of something a beautiful person told me, but thats too personal, and it was like when i was 16, I been writing a book though, only somewhat about hppd, more about being a stupid partier in the U.S. I am at a point where i could finish the book, but i have to make writing about a "social engineering" group that has come to bemerry by existance, and although i would love to write mostly truth, I really dont want to make these Unknown"anon" ppl sound like total chickenfucking assholes! so all o yall mofizz, give me a shout out, maybe yall b getrs in my writ! up and on the peril of my life!!

It sucks when people fuck with your head, the same is true when people fake compassion. The anxiety, DP/DR is way worse than the visual imho. I just hope things go well for you.

lol honestly I have been seeing my hppd as a pleasure in comparison to a social engineer I pissed off, kid broke into my house and stole porn I made with my ex girlfriend while we were drunk and is showing it off to guys of influence in my life (teachers, bosses, classmates) in order to make it out that Im an Evil person, (my personality doesnt help) its is good social proof i must admit. what guy doesnt like secret smut, but he attaches a connotation of malice to it that no matter what I do or say only makes it seem true. elequent. I beat him up because of it and now he just spreads the lies more fervently. does anyone know how to deal with such a situation?? Beware of the friendly stranger!

I live near harvard how do i join?

I hate DP/DR so making love is fine with me. tooo bad im a virgin

being diagnosed with hppd only made me feel better because i knew someone was trying to understand it other than me, theres no cure just relief. I have been sober most of this month and honestly i couldnt tell you that it helped at all.

i think my dad has hppd, in his own way, its sorta sad but its ok. we talked about it in the realm of perception rather than doing drugs which is what let me know he understood. but when i told my mom , which was much earlier, she just told me i was insane. that hurt alot. i was young. it sucked but its all been done now and i go to the college with no building.

lets just say TIHKAL . pyramidic said it best with the a few times a year. but a year feels like 5 minutes after its passed so I usually trip 1 or 2 times a month. I'm thinking about eating some something something dotay. nitoght? whatever. tripping on indole molecules is much better than deleriants. I took datura for years Its alll darkside! I still have symptoms from it. i am sure all the stuff I ingest regularly just adds to the visual clutter but there is just so much there that you dont notice it anymore, until you notice some new cool visual distortion that reminds you of your last trip, and it stays.i would love to see what you are all like on hallucinogens but i know most of you fear the burn of the spark. I decided this path, it makes me sad sometimes, but so doesn't politics and business practices. smile and be happy for the emptiness that pursues to thwart any meaning or semblance inside and throw your life away for a cause. wow I am far to nihilistic. good day all...

its good to see old avatars. Yea part of why I haven't posted much is because of the change and the lack of old familiar posters. may anyone who feels this dream and fall away from the self stigma associated from it. out of sight out of mind may not be true but out of thought out of mind helps. I MISS FREEDOM! I miss the old board. distract yourself from your symptoms however you can. It isn't exactly a healthy way to deal with something but I have seen worse ways to deal with things. have a great day all.

Lets just say I am depressed. Not from being unable to perceive a straight line without a skew, mostly because I am lonely for much of the time and The people I associate with are callus and dramatic. Social/personal issues have be-fronted me for the past few years to the point that my visual stress has been on the back burner for a good while now. being distracted from my sensory milieu has been "peaceful" but the distraction is damaging as a medication. I tried to kill myself with a bottle of meth/molly/vodka a couple weekends ago and lets just say that supportive friends are really a good thing to have. Pursuing Biotechnology and botany and shmoozing with the local minds about such ideas and projects has helped but a lack of personal companionship leaves me an empty craftsman putting all of his love into artifacts to time. So thats what keeps me from going to this site and complaining about my symptoms. What keeps you from stressing over knowing that you wont ever see things the same again?

ok, well standard night dropping acid as far as standard goes. i tripped till my laughter melted into my soul for eternity and i still have a headache from laughing so hard about someone looking me in the eye saying he would never eat candy again, to swimming through an orange which i ate peel and all. but that's beyond the point. I came home tripping balls still, and when i got home i was the only one sober enough to drive my girlfriends friends car to bring them home, so in the middle of a snowstorm i drove 2 drunk people with autism home to a part of town called belvidere, 3 drunks, 2 autistic, 1 tripping and he was the soberest of all. nothing could prepare me for what happened when i went in my girls friends house and her friends boytoy and i were in the kitchen making sandwiches. 2aM IN THE RICH PART OF TOWN making a sandwich with a kid with autism who was drunk, and then her parents wake up, another fiasco, eventually my girlfriend tells me to call her mom for a ride and as soon as the ride arrives i become the asshole for calling for a ride. all i am saying is that god should not have made a man high on acid have to be the only person in the room with morals and a sense of responsibility, seriously.

is the interaction between human beings going to be socially acceptable? My girlfriend is to selfish and bratty and wont ever let her mental defense wall down enough to ever take my advice as anything more than an attack on her lifestyle and it is ultra frustrating.. but she does do a lot of good things for me. but having a partner that cannot accept my input makes me feel all alone inside. Everyone has needs. I hate drinking... I hate drunks. that being said i hate myself currently. but I have things to look up to. I am in college Doing my thesis on trying to cross an endangered species with the common strawberry. I hope it works. I look forward to finding a new job. I have applied to more than 530 different openings since I have lost my Christmas job at sears. only 3 callbacks and 2 interviews. this economy is bad. I look forward to class and learning things that interest me. If i just had this or that i could immerse myself in it to forget what bothers me but why do i need an escape? why cant I just deal with my problems head on? oh a decent stocked lab or a MIG welder would be nice and I would be happy to create and learn. is there anything that doesn't have ulterior intentions in this world? I have goals. I work towards them as much as possible everyday so why am I so unhappy and alone even with my girlfriend cuddling next to me? I think it's just DP/DR and drunk indifference blending together into a melancholy. So kids remember It to shall pass and your just one step away from the light and happiness so never stop walking towards it and walk away from those empty feelings of hopelessness because when you feel hopeless you are. It is just your election. in a weird way you want it.well that isn't really true because i never want to feel this way it just creeps up on me. so if you feel alone in the world I'm letting you know that I have felt the same way although my circumstances were most likely different, and I got past it so you can to, sure I still have hppd, its been there so long i don't care anymore. what you should take from this is I have no Idea how to handle some parts of my life/ myself and that If you feel similar ever that you are NOT alone and I hope that helps someone break out of the bad loneliness. so feel better it will make me happy...ulterior motives lol.

Hi all, why do I hate christmas??? 1. I spent christmas in a barn because I ran away with 2 of my friends on christmas when i was 13 2. My stepdad killed my dog the year after a week before christmas, she was still a puppy! 3. I watched my best friend have his eye ripped out of its socket on christmas eve one year and i got stabbed that night all over a bad coke deal. 4. My mother has been having me help pay for my christmas/birthday gifts since i was 12. think about paying for your own christmas present when you still kinda believe in santa! 5. this year is great! My uncle who was a molecular biologist died of a cyst on his liver rupturing, the one man i looked up to died. The only relative i visited last summer during my roadtrip died! He's the only reason I want to become a Genetics Engineer!!! and he died! and to add insult to injury, insted of helping me through my heard times, my girlfriend chugs a liter of mango vodka and beats me up the day after when i have a job interview in the morning! I dont want her anymore but it still hurts i mean i do still love her in a way but I need someone who i can rely on especially in the winter, I hate christmas! I want to hang it up.. so bad i mean yesterday i did bad things to my arm. i havent hurt myself in like 3 years.. I dont know what to do. I wish i had a job so i could just work my problems away. the only thing i have to live for... is typing right now. IF LOVE IS AN ILLUSION THEN FUCK REALITY!!! Heroin doesn't help, alcohol doesnt help, mushrooms havent helped. FUCK REALITY!! but seriously, drugs just make the feelinggs go away temporarily. i hope no one else in this world feels as bad as i do today because they don't diserve it. so please tell me about all of your wonderful christmas's i dont want to live and i need more drugs but i dont want to steal. FUCK LIFE!!! have a merry christmas i just needed to vent and i am sorry if this brought you down. please be merry for me.

yea it took me soo long to get back onto this board, i may not post much anymore but now i am a n00b poster again!! and all of the posts on the old board are gone! my catch phrase is gone.... If love is an illusion than Fu<k Reality!!!!