Hey guys , here’s a little back story
Okay so, when I was 17 I smoked weed with my friends and had a really bad high. I’m not sure if my severe anxiety of it or the weed actually brought on my visual snow syndrome or what but that’s when I started. My mom took me to all the docs and no one knew wtf this was esp 15 years ago (I’m 32 now) so finally a doc figured it out but there’s obv no cure or treatment so I’ve lived with it for 15 years. It was super mild, barely there but def still noticeable but I just lived my life normally, it was just my normal sight. So then 3 weeks ago when I got a migraine with aura it got really bad. The aura is always scary but having them so often when I was younger I didn’t panic. I had one 5 months ago and felt weird but my vision didn’t get back. Then this one I noticed 3 days later my snow was so bad. I look at the walls and they glitter, things shake, I feel like I’m in a bubble. My anxiety got so bad. I couldn’t eat, sleep, I was in a severe panic attack majority of the day. The doctor upped my Zoloft but that’s not kicked in yet. I started therapy so I’m hoping that helps me cope. I wake up every morning and dry heave because my nerves are so shot. I’m sleeping a tad better but the mornings are so bad for me. I have good days and bad. I know I have to cope and deal with this because it’s forever but I wish it would just go back down to baseline. The other night i has BAD heavy thick snow in the middle of the night but it went back down. Now I’m terrified it’s worse or getting worse. It’s very scary!! i feel like the last few days everything is heavier, the snow and the flickering around everything. Can I just be in a long flare up and the constant anxiety and OCD of checking for the vision is making it worse? If anyone can help me out it give advice I’d appreciate it !
Sorry for the long post