This kind of insomnia is sometimes seen in other post-drug syndromes like Post Finasteride Syndrome and Post SSRI Syndrome ( PSSD ). Unfortunately serotoninergic drugs ( regardless SSRIs or psychedelics ) and finasteride / isotretinoin are one of the most unpredictable and dangerous. Only a very few substances can screw human brain on a comparable level. That happen to small minority, but it's even worse as the danger is ignored by public and victims gaslighted.
You can try to restore normal sleep with mirtazapine / cyproheptadine ( two doses per week - not daily ) or zolpidem ( from 1 to 6 tablets - try 0,5 to 2x tablets every 15 minutes up to 3x times then start lowering dosage if it works). Do not mix any substances - test only one. Do not take other drugs, especially SSRIs or antipsychotics. Doctors prescribing them have no idea what they are doing. You have no psychosis but dissociation induced by a lack of normal sleep. The cause of insomnia is a permanently stuck anxiety / panic state overriding sleep pressure. Further insomnia aggravates terror and loop close.
Check the description of fatal insomnia. This a prion disease, but may be a symptom reference what happens after extremely severe sleep deprivation. Being stuck in a limbo / hypnagogia fits your description. I don't know how incompetent doctors you have encountered they ignored how severe your insomnia is.
If you don't restore normal sleep the heart / blood pressure problems will get you off or your cognition will get to the point of dementia / stupor. This is an extreme torutre and I'm not suprised you tried to escape using euthanasia drugs.
This kind of insomnia is sometimes seen in other post-drug syndromes like Post Finasteride Syndrome and Post SSRI Syndrome ( PSSD ). Unfortunately serotoninergic drugs ( regardless SSRIs or psychedelics ) and finasteride / isotretinoin are one of the most unpredictable and dangerous. Only a very few substances can screw human brain on a comparable level. That happen to small minority, but it's even worse as the danger is ignored by public and victims gaslighted. You can try to restore normal sleep with mirtazapine / cyproheptadine ( two doses per week - not daily ) or zolpidem ( from 1 to 6 tablets - try 0,5 to 2x tablets every 15 minutes up to 3x times then start lowering dosage if it works). Do not mix any substances - test only one. Do not take other drugs, especially SSRIs or antipsychotics. Doctors prescribing them have no idea what they are doing. You have no psychosis but dissociation induced by a lack of normal sleep. The cause of insomnia is a permanently stuck anxiety / panic state overriding sleep pressure. Further insomnia aggravates terror and loop close. Check the description of fatal insomnia. This a prion disease, but may be a symptom reference what happens after extremely severe sleep deprivation. Being stuck in a limbo / hypnagogia fits your description. I don't know how incompetent doctors you have encountered they ignored how severe your insomnia is. If you don't restore normal sleep the heart / blood pressure problems will get you off or your cognition will get to the point of dementia / stupor. This is an extreme torutre and I'm not suprised you tried to escape using euthanasia drugs.