FrappuDew

Well... I don't qualify for having a disorder since it no longer causes distress in my life. I'm writing in this section to describe my symptoms from the days I intentionally exacerbated them for recreation. Since stimulants worsen symptoms... I'd smoke the most powerful stimulant... crystal meth. Being overly tired also worsen symptoms. So I'd stay awake for a couple of days. I'm mean... I was smoking meth. Lol But it wasn't enough sleep deprivation to cause a normal person to see things. I would then top it off with some weed. I would see certain words written on my face, objects, in the shadows from tree leaves. The words had meaning to me. My favorite musicians name and the "friend"'s name who introduced my wife to the drug that ended up causing her to go through drug-induced psychosis for several years. While bright light often makes symptoms worse... going into a darker environment that would allow my my brain to run wild the less available visual stimuli. I'd look into a mirror and the highlights and contrast would create fantastic visuals. Such as when I would place my spaced out fingers on my face, lots of highlights and contrast when spaced apart. Steadying them on my face kept them from moving around. My fingers would turn into what I ended up calling "my townspeople". The fingers most frequently became couples dancing with each other, or embracing one another in some way. Sometimes it looked as though they were doing chores. One time I was watching my wife sleep... and an entire scene from "Dazed and Confused" was what I saw. Not my wife. Formanoit two weeks I saw smiley faces almost everywhere. Humans always see faces in patterns... but this wasn't that. Think of smiley face stickers. Those things everywhere. Lol Much more I could tell ya, but I'm tired of typing. I hope at least one person found this interesting. . "