Ihatehppd

I’ve been suffering from constant DR with hppd and its driving me insane. I hate it so much it makes me so depressed and anxious. How do i help it? Its a daily thing and usually comes on when im tired or anxious or even just thinking about it makes me feel like im in a DR state. Nothing feels as normal or “real” as it used to. I sometimes question if im even alive. (Im on lexapro 5mg and abilify 2.5mg)

I noticed i had hppd after smoking weed since 2 weeks after first time consuming lsd. I knew i had it before smoking but it was very minimal now I can definitely notice it. Its consumed my life. I feel like its getting worst i started taking lexapro but it made me feel more depressed then i ever have, so i stopped. Even after stopping symptoms still seem to be getting worst. Can synthroid that i take once a day for hypothroidism be making symptoms worst? I basically can’t stop this medication and Im so scared that if it continues to worsen my daily life will be ruined not allowing me to drive or do anything because the visuals worsen. Im only 16 i want a good life. I have so many regrets. Its getting hard to keep going.