grassjohns

I also have a history of using DMT, ecstasy, lsd, and mushrooms more than 2 years ago.

Hello, in December, I had a really intense reaction to marijuana. I felt fine after a few hours except things were very slightly moving, then became extremely depressed and suicidal. I went to the mental hospital a week later and they gave me risperidone for the hallucinating. The day after I was released I experienced derealization like I had never experienced before and started hallucinating intensely and went into a state of confusion. I was horrified and thought I was going crazy. I had no delusions though. For days nothing looked real and I couldn’t feel my body while everything around me was moving so much. There was intense after image effects, visual snow, and floaters. As well as ringing in my ears that still happens. I had multiple panic attacks and nightmares. After a week my friend let me use her Xanax and for 3 weeks that was the only thing that would help while I was trying to get taken in by a psychiatrist. My psychiatrist raised my antidepressant and really thinks this was psychosis. She won’t listen to me and says the DSM doesn’t categorize HPPD as including derealization/depersonalization. I’m on antipsychotics now but I’m so scared they’re gonna make this worse. Does anyone have any insight?