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Snap-Nettieboi

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  1. It is really good to know that someone else out there is going through the same struggles that I am with HPPD. I agree that the ADHD medication leads to further and worsened symptoms as I have been trying my best to come up with research notes and trying to find opportunities to lessen my symptoms. I can only imagine the affects that Adderall instead of methylphenidate is causing for you. Thank you so much for the suggestions I have already found them on Amazon and I am going to be ordering them as soon as I am done typing this. I'm desperate for an answer or possibilities of a cure. If you would like to talk further about this you can add me on snap its my username. Thank you very much for the suggestions I'm glad that you gave me somewhere to start.
  2. I'm not sure SS1. I think I've just found out that I contracted HPPD after years upon years of thinking there was something simply not right with my head. Visual snow has been worsening, and I take Methylphenidate which was just recently upped to 28mg as an extended release. It keeps me awake and although it does not help my focus entirely it does help some. I have taken quite a few different kinds of ADHD medications since I was 8 and I believe I got depersonalization/derealization disorder from using Ritalin. I can be false when it comes to my claims because I too am not a doctor of any sort however I now realize I was experiencing those symptoms after taking it for years. I also took an ADHD medication I cannot remember however it caused excessive picking at my skin and the doctors eventually created an altered version of that medication which caused no picking side effects. About a year and a half to two years ago I started picking up dab pens and using carts on a regular. After using and abusing for about 6 months I moved onto actual bud which seemed to work better and feel cleaner. I stopped feeling as foggy but still foggy. After that I used wax for a while and then shrooms and I used cocaine once as well. Both times I used my brain felt much foggier and the visual snow worsened. I'm not sure where I stand with HPPD as of right now or whether my symptoms are not real or whether my claims are false. I'm struggling to understand how to even comprehend what my brain feels but I realized I wasn't the only person to feel what I was feeling when I went to college. I found a group of people who are my friends now that also seemed to have some of the same symptoms. We dubbed it "space" but I think I see now that it is actually HPPD. In truth, some of my friends have done more drugs than I have but none have been on ADHD meds as long as me or at all. We all have a mutual understanding of what we are experiencing but I believe I am experiencing it worse than them. The visual snow and depersonalization has been scaring me recently however. And my mental state is declining rapidly. I had a friend call suicide prevention a week ago because I fell into alcoholism and my drunk ass poured my mind out to him while I was crying on the floor and he was generally worried about me. I know he wouldn't have made the call unless he thought it was serious and although I don't remember what I said at all really I do remember clearly the last thing I said before I passed out was "don't call the cops." The moral of this story is you should talk to a doctor if you find that HPPD is starting to affect your mental health because it can get so very much worse either immediately or over an extended period of time. Please seek help if you feel this way.
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