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Ioannis

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  1. Just now I had a walk down the city and the whole time was like as if I'm on 1/4th of an LSD tab. The colors are soooo intense, I have weird thoughts that I only have when I'm tripping. Help me God please
  2. I took some of yours advice today and drank a smoothie with broccoli, kale, chia seeds, banana, apple, and boiled some green cardamom and drank it, also ate royal jelly, pollen, and propolis, and I also drank some black seed oil. The only thing I've eaten after that is a bite of olivebread and goji berries. I'm not used to eating so much nutrition at once, so I had a lot of nausea at first for around 20 minutes. After my stomach absorbed all that, I had a strong feeling of tension, as if I had just taken many B vitamins. It wasn't that comfortable, but it did feel natural and felt like if I keep doing this ill get used to it in time and start feeling better with time. I went to the mountain and smoked some CBD, and I can say that it calmed down the tension I had from too many nutrients. I went to the top of the big rock, prayed and meditated for around 5 minutes infront of the sun, cleared my thoughts, and I did feel better. I went and laid on the grass and looked at the sky. Haven't looked at the sky since I took the shrooms a month ago and ruined my life. Many lines forming symbols, sooo many annoying floaters. I didn't feel anxious and scared though this time and I think it was because I had eaten healthy. For a little today I felt as if I started enjoying life again, but I was still feeling as if I'm not perceiving life normally, but I wasn't anymore that much in the dark place I'm usually at. I also found a herbal/vitamin pill called Neuroforte, which supposedly does good to the brain. I'm not looking to take it for long, just until I feel like I healed enough to continue life normally. Tonight will be the third time I will take Niacin. I think that's helping too, I can see a difference. Because of all this, today I felt more confident. It's not at all like my HPPD has left, but it's like I don't experience scary feelings and my visuals aren't that scary, since I ate the foods. I'm kinda pretty normal right now, hopefully it will last and actually get even better. I feel that if I keep eating healthy, praying, meditating and exercising, I will get better. I wish the best for all of you in your journey to healing completely. God Bless
  3. Don't know if this is bad to mention here, but I will do iboga in a month and will let you all know if it helped me or not. So far it seems like the combination of a Jesus and iboga are the only hope... https://reset.me/story/how-a-schizophrenic-drug-addict-reclaimed-his-life-with-iboga/
  4. Is there still hope? Please I'm in hell for almost a month now. I took more than 5 grams of shrooms 20 days after quitting my antipsychotic med solian, which was also the biggest dose of shrooms I've ever done. I dosed at 10pm at night which was also a mistake. Also smoked weed at around 2am when I THOUGHT it was over. Anyways, life has changed since. A lot. I now get very easily scared, I get scared by my own shadow. I became very sensitive to sounds, smells, and light, they have a meaningful but frightening vibe to them. I have multiple paranoid thoughts they are racing thoughts allll the time. I have now a lot of anxiety, fear and depression, and anger with my parents. Yesterday was the first day I had lack of emotions, even if I tried to purposely show emotion. I can't even keep my eyes closed because it's like I'm staring into a deep dark void. It's like my life is ruined. Is there still any hope? I've made an appointment in a vip clinic in Serbia to go do iboga, a mind cleansing drug that is supposedly many times stronger than LSD, but they say that after it's over, your state of mind goes back to it's original processing before you ever took any drug... I hope it helps and doesn't make my condition worse. I took Niacin today for the first time ever and had a religious experience the moment it entered my brain and fixed a nerve wound. I felt it. It was good. I find hope in it. IS THERE ANY HOPE?? God bless!!
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