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If i violated any rule by this comment please remove it. Hello guys! It's me again. If someone is reading my post, this thing never leaves but it becomes better. As i understood getting HPPD is very traumatic experience and your brain is trying to cope giving you many anxiety related problems. Yet again i fell and I'm full in DPDR/Fear/Rotting episode I'm 100% sure i will get my quality life back because i had it in 2022-2024.(my hppd started in 2021) Moderator who answered me back in 2021 is saying truth. No substance, believing in random God, meditation makes your anxiety journey pass faster. I replied this as cope for myself but i believe many will find answers to their fears. You feel like you are going insane? Me too brother, it's false though created by anxiety. You think you will get psychosis? Stroke from flashes? Dementia? No you will not. 4years and i lived 3 of them in peace, you will also.

P.S.S. If i focus my mind, focus my vision i don't see any hallucinations. Only in mirrors, and for first 30seconds only. + Its not always. If i work on my bike in mornings, its very rare to hallucinations to appier, but later in afternoon.. if only i could stop thinking about it after hard day.

Yo folks. I smoked first time 0.2 No effect, no withdrawal. I smoked week later 0.2 acid Panic attack, little trip, lasted 15mins. Withdrawal, irritable 3days. Smoked month later 1.0 (Strong unknown, not wet(i think non acid) high fun Next day 1.0 high fun. Here we go... First strange thing i noticed, third day i was high in afternoon without weed. Normal week, clear brain. I drunk 0.5l of vodka and next day i got all visual snow symptoms. I was so stressed that i damaged my brain for 2months. Last 2months (4months of visual snow) i started to see things.. some sort of faces or eyes in front of me. Faces and strange objects in corner of eye. I'm not in psychosis. I know whats real and not even with depersonalization. I can imagine sounds(that happened before, like dog bark or something) or stuck them for minutes. I'm schizophrenic or what? These hallucinations are so strange... Will i heal after all? For now ofc i want to heal my hallucinations but visual snow is destroying me too. I hope we will all heal from this. P.S. I stopped everything after visual snow. No drugs, No alchogol, fuck this shit really.