Bigg. Pappa

Guy u gotta b more engaged with the forums. I’m not getting the validation I was hoping to get...

Here guys. I wrote this in the hard time of my life. HPPD, school problems , personal ones. My style changed since then, but It means a whole lot to me and it gave me strength to go on. And I hope it will help you too. I am alone, But was I ever not so? I am losing battles, But did I ever really win? Fate's a cruel thing without a doubt, Or was it me who made life taste like spoiled milk? You can make me doubt myself But what you can't, is break me. And no one can, And no one will, But please, I beg you, don't forget me. Do not forget to keep on trying. Please do make me want to cry ,when no one can hear, Do make me want to drown the bitter nights in sips of wine, Do make me dream at night to fall asleep and never then wake up to see the sun. And don't forget to try the hardest, to make me want to finally give up, 'Cause thats the only thing I won't do. Do make my knuckles bleed Do make me hate Do make me cold and distant, searching for the warmth in the synthetic dreams You've done all that before, but what i haven't mentioned Is that you'll never make me to regret it all. Unlike a phenix, I won't reborn anew but stronger, The scars from you will stay for life, But no matter how scared my wings are I’ll only look up higher to the sky.

I got hppd a few yers ago. I'm totally fine now. But I thought about it for a while and came to a conclusion that hppd might be the disease of neurotics , ipohondriacs , depressives. Not to be condenscesing or anything , I myself was prone to anxiety and depression. And its ofc not what u are but what u do with it , in this case. But just how many of us would describe ourselves of a neurotic predicament? Not to say that hppd is fake. But I strongly suspect that there is a huge link to having a certain type of a personality. That I conclude from what I myself was prior to working on myself , on the info on the net , and also on the posts on this website. Many are ofc totally rational and sober minded, but cmon , just how many reek of neuroticism and ipohondria? Once again, I totally was in that boat myself, and who would blame a person for neurotisism who just got his world turned upside down. But I still think there is a very definite neurotic/ipohondraic 'flavour' that imbues much of the hppd-sufferers communities. So it would be interesting to know how many of you would consider themselves of a neurotic/ depressive/ ipohondriac predicament prior to getting hppd.

So far it looks like ur traces are what started the whole cascade of hppd like reactions. And in turn were caused by 'feeling down'. So r u sure its the weed that made u feel like that. And even if thats the case don't u think that any kind of thing that would make u feel like that would cause u to see traces etc.

W8 w8. So when were u feeling down then. Was it in the run up to the incident. Or after it. Before or after seeing the traces.

Well, listen, considering that u didn’t even get high and that u noticed change in ur hppd few days later, I think it’s very unlikely that the weed did smth. Look up the forums. Ppl say that smoking does make it worse but ofc that get high and start seeing the change in hppd almost str8 away. U mentioned trails. So what happened was that u got the trails and then u started feeling anxious and had dp/dr? That would Ofc mean that it’s not hppd per say but a neurotic reaction to the trails. Apart from weed, was there anything else? Maybe some psychological stuff?

Bruh. Chill. If it went away before it’s gonna go away now. Did u get high? Cause if u didn’t it can all just be a neurotic reaction.