Hi,
I am a new member of this forum, I hope you are all well. 3 years ago, I took LSD for the first (and only) time. My trip was not entirely bad, and for the first few weeks after it, I didn't really have any issues. I continued to recreationally take MDMA and ketamine in social settings with no effects. However, after 2 months, I smoked weed, and it felt like I was back in a trip. This brought on a panic attack and intense anxiety. It seemed to had triggered something in my brain as taking MDMA/ketamine after that also made me feel as if I was in a trip mentally and would result in really bad panic attacks.
After that incident, I began to have A LOT of visual disturbances, including visual snow, floaters, hallucinations in the dark, objects seeming like they were getting smaller or bigger, patterns on wood moving and flowing. I also had depersonalisation, panic attacks, severe anxiety and a lot of flashbacks.
Fast forward to now, I have healed from it a lot. The visual disturbances have reduced greatly. I still see floaters and still hallucinate in the darkness, but overall soo much better than how it was a few years ago. I still have very severe anxiety, which is triggered mostly by sensations, thoughts or feelings I relate to/felt in my trip. I have never researched it because for me, diving deep into it made it a lot worse and would on set a panic attack each time I tried. But now I am in a better mental position to, I want to start exploring what happened to me and what I am going through now.
Any advice/comments would be amazing and woulfd help so much! Thank you :)