LilDoke

Thank you very much for your wonderful post!

Super cool post AlphaBeta! nicely written, and big props. What i mean by inner work is what pretty much happens by itself when you become completely sober. It is a challenging time, and you will be constantly fighting inner demons. Fighting these inner demons is what i mean by innerwork. What i recommend is that you do not run away into another distraction. Fast food, tv, computer, music for the sake of not listening to thoughts n so on. I recommend that you pick up hobbies that let help you understand yourself better emotionally . For example painting, writing, just sitting and feeling, dancing, walking in nature, sauna. Everything is connected. So when you develop yourself emotionally and mentally, then this in itself will aid your body a lot with its recovery. Dynamic therapy helped me a lot aswell, since it lets me digest emotions and experience which i have been unable to digest before. Which makes me more whole and centered again. All the best

Don't do fucking acid again. What you are Looking for is not in the acid experience anyways. It is something in your sober self that wants to get away hence the want to trip. If you figure that you strike the gold. Yes it Will get Worse. And Then you Will probably wish you didn't make it more severe. You Can also get symptoms of for example derealisation and brain Fog. And When you get that, you wish you just had some perceptial issue. So please don't take acid for your own sake. Figure out why you want to do acid. Deep Down and Explore Your innerself sober. Then you really get the experience you are Looking for. Also don't say never.(this Can be tough on the Psyche). You could for example say. I Will allow my self to do acid again in 5 years, or When the visual disturbances have passed. I know several people who had it and it went away after years of grueling inner work. So give yourself some time! all the best

I get 1 Session every month approximately, it is combined with dynamic psychotherapy. In total it cost around 100 euros each time. No i didn't get those effects everytime. Maybe just the first 3 times. But it can be clearly felt after every sesshin. You feel great, then you return to baseline, but better. So like building up a muscle again. In my view Hppd is deep stress that is unsolved in the Neurons, and from accounts of several people i know that have had it, this theory seems to be true, according to stanislav grof aswell. I am saying this because from when i started to do this mix of the therapies i would start crying, not breaking down or anything but walking on the street and feeling stuff untangle inside. And then the crying was letting go of this stuff. here is a link about biophotontherapy. I also know that meditation plays a Huge part in accessing deeper healing qualities of the human body/psyche https://www.biolithe.nl/biophoton-therapy

Hello everyone As the titel States my symptoms are almost completely gone. The only reason i am on the board is because i feel like what i have done might help others aswell. The first 4 months was really though wanted to kill myself, and thought it would last forever. At this time all my friends thought i was in Japan, But i spent all my time on my parents Couch. During this time i started to write, anything That came to mind. Both the bad and the good. This is a habit i recently stopped, But i have probably written a 1000 A4 pages in hand. This helped me so much. At first it was extremely tough, because of the head pressure, and disconnected feeling. But I still wrote even though it didn't really felt like me writing. This was the first step, and it helped me so much mentally, to find my back to myself again. I started going to psychotherapy and getting biophoton therapy 4 months in. and I started to feel that I was getting better. The night after the first biophoton therapy, I woke in something that was like peaking again on LSD. It was clear to me that my body was cleaning out and returning to baseline. Both of these therapies helped a lot and I still do it. Around the 5 month mark, I started meditating at least 1 hour daily and began doing bound lotus as part of my yoga practice. This posture intrigues me since it is said to cure all diseases and make you merge into the spirit realm where all healing is possible. This pose would make my brainfog disappear during and after the pose for a while. I could from then on slowly feel the light and clear mind, seeping into my daily life. 1 year in I did a meditation retreat for a week. This healed me so so so, brainfog and anxiety is rarely a thing. Still doing therapy and meditation. Looking forward to the next retreat as well. I am hoping for all of you that you will be able to heal and return to a shining beautiful reality soon. I will check the board every once in a while so feel free to ask any questions. Much love to all of you

Hello everyone This is the first time I write on the forum, but I have been visiting you guys for about a year now. I have had Hppd for that same amount of time. I am not going to write anything about myself nor my symptoms, except it might be important to mention that i have meditated for more than half my life, in a very serious manner. I would like to share something, since i am deeply engaged in eradicating Hppd from my system or at least from the neuralpathways that my consciousness observes. Psychedelics have in many experiments shown to increase neuroplasticity. Always portrayed very positively and for good reason, we don't generally have much plasticity. But negative plasticity can also happen..This is a qoute from an article "Successive dosing and increasing levels of tolerance implies stress-based neuroplasticity. In the case of hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD), the subject retains some of the visual effects of hallucinogens long after the drug should have metabolized;5 persisting reactions to neural stress imply neuroplasticity. " This resonates so much with me. About 4 months into Hppd i started to meditate daily for 1 hour, later making it 2. In the beginning it was tougher than ever before...It was like my mind was stuck in a loop and couldn'tfind its way back to meditation. I have been doing intense retreats since the age of 11, so it should have been fairly easy. But this was more painful than ever. Anyhow i pressed on, no matter how much it hurt, because it hurt a lot when i meditated. My head hurt so much that 1 time i nearly passed out. When practicing zazen we sit with open eyes, and the visuals would become extremely intense to the point of full on tripping again. So I pressed on day after day, and month after month. I could feel how my mind was slowly but surely breaking free from the evil spiral of Hppd. After some months the visuals when meditating died down, and the pain in the head became more bearable. I believe it will take quite a while consciousness to never dig into the dark channels of hppd again, maybe about 5 years. But that is fine. I believe that Hppd can be reversed with neuroplasticity. I will practice things that improve my neuroplasticity consistently and forcefully. Drawing, writing, dancing, learning a new language, training/yoga, daily meditation/zazen, proper sleep, playing a new instrument and so on. Good luck to all of you!