Kyle77

Still kicking

This is going to kill me. My life has been on halt because of this, whatever it is. I don't really know if it is Derealization, Brain Fog or HPPD. These are just terms that I have found that best describe my symptoms. When this all started I believed it was anxiety, but it never went away. I just feel dumb as shit, and I have visual symptoms. I'm still living at home, I don't have a job, and don't plan on going to college. I don't have any motivation to pursue my life, BUT it's because I feel FOGGY. It's because I just feel OFF, WEIRD, or maybe NUMB. And this all started when I decided to have a bender one weekend, and I do have a minor history of cannibas and K2 use. Every single fucking doctor I have seen will fail to recognize this. What does brain fog feel like? You can't focus, or maintain a train of thought. You feel high and out of it. You may get headaches all the time or have visual snow or static in your vision. You know things aren't right but no one will listen to you. Sometimes you may wonder if your just really Schizophrenic. I want to die!

I just feel like a crazy piece of shit.

This is the same kind of bullshit that I've dealt with when trying to get help for this from "doctors". It's anxiety its all in your head. Stop thinking about it it will go away. Everyone that has to deal with HPPD/Brainfog/Depersonalization knows the frustration. I've tried to accept that this is all anxiety, but it's still here. It's a neurological disorder, plain and simple and I bet an FMRI can measure this. Has anyone ever heard of Pseudobulbar affect? Pseudobulbar affect (PBA) is a condition that's characterized by episodes of sudden uncontrollable and inappropriate laughing or crying. Pseudobulbar affect typically occurs in people with certain neurological conditions or injuries, which might affect the way the brain controls emotion. So is MattyHouseMouse suggesting that people with this Pseudobulbar affect can actually control there symptoms with shear will power? It doesn't work like that. If it could then what does that tell you about consciousness itself? Does the mind exist beyond our reality? And if it does then I guess with enough will power we could override any problem confined to our material world. I could literally grow a fucking leg back, or a brain.

Thankyou for the reply, im feeling really beaten and depressed because of this. I've forgot to mention that I was also diagnosed with sleep apnea awhile ago and got a CPAP machine but I don't think it helps all that much. It gives me gas. Do you know any other HPPD/Visual Snow/Brain Fog sufferers that have been diagnosed with sleep apnea as well? Mine isn't severe persay when they found it but it was enough to cause a drop in blood oxygen when I'm sleeping.

Is there a name for the specks I see?

This is what I see.

The way I see it, it's a neurological problem that causes such psychological distress. I suffer from extreme brain fog and I myself share strange visuals. My life is at a complete stand still because of this. No doctor will help you with this. I have tried. I have asked for and FMRI, and neuropsychological evalutation and the doctor said good luck finding an insurance company that will help with that. What I want to do for myself is study this, and understand what's going on in the brain, what's lighting up, what's not. I want to take cognitive testing and really assess my overall fluid intelligence because I really believe there's a god damn problem. The best way I can describe it is like something clicked, when this all happened and haven't felt right ever since. Lots of people feel this way. Lupus, Multiple Sclerosis, Fibromyalgia, Diabetes, Post concussive syndrome but a doctor wont help you. Your just thinking to much take this pill and shut the fuck up. Sorry if you feel worse or get more problems. I've been suggested anywere from anxiety to schiz. I just feel so numb and dumb all the time and all I really want is to feel and think again.

I don't know where to start. I have had "brain fog" since 2011. I'm 24 years old now and I need to figure my life out, but I am too afraid to take the step because of this simple yet obscure "brain fog". It is a disability, but no one is able to accept or even acknowledge that it is a very real problem. "I look normal" on the outside but I definitely don't feel so normal on the inside. To put it plainly, I feel numb and dumb and I have one or some visual symptoms as well. I have heard of sage helping with cognitive function, but what is the proper dose? What are some side effects associated with sage? What are some peoples experiences using it? I've read lots of stuff on brain fog and just about anything can cause it, but I believe, like everyone else here, feel it is a chemical imbalance due to previous drug and alcohol usage. I would appreciate it if someone could point me to the right place. I am interested in herbal remedies and vitamins that may help. Thank you.

Has anyone thought about trying to get an FMRI? I asked a doctor to help get me one but he said good luck finding an insurance company that will pay for it. I've also tried to get neuropsychological evaluation. I think you can get a whole bunch of tests that gauge your working memory, attention. verbal fluency, all sorts of stuff to assess your overall cognitive capacity. I was told that's only give to people if they have severe enough brain trauma by the same doctor.

Haven't read the post just figure I blurt an answer. Glutamate function is suggested I figure glumate because it sounds like the brains main voltage system if that makes sense.

NDMA, glutamate receptor dysfunction? I've done some reading but forgot lol. Darn brain fog

I have not used any drugs as far as I am aware, I forgot to mention that I smoked pot about 4 time before the K2 incident and once after. It was some mild stuff and gave me a body high. Never had a problem from actually smoking weed but will not touch anything anymore.

I am probably thinking about taking ginkgo and St. John Wort. My father said he kind of felt like I did when I was younger but probably not as so severe as me. He really took them because he just wanted a little edge without having to take something a lil more hardcore, if you know what I am talking about. I thought about trying to get some Ritalin or Adderall from a doctor but again I am afraid to take anything really.