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Sorry for the late reply Hall! I somehow missed this. The main symptoms I used to experience were visual snow , flashbacks, nausea, breathing/wave visuals, ‘thought loops’ (would fixate on something and think about it over and over again for an unspecified amount of time) and minor distorted depth perception. I may have had more symptoms but I can’t remember them off the top of my head now. As of now, I haven’t thought about HPPD for a significant amount of time. Any lingering symptoms I have no longer remind me of this condition; it’s simply a non factor in my day to day life. The visual snow is still there, but I’ve forgot about it being different compared to than I used to see. When I look up at my pitch black ceiling and see the snow, it seems completely normal. Of the symptoms I mentioned that I previously had, I currently only SEEM to have the visual snow and minor distorted depth perception. The depth perception isn’t typically an issue and I’m not 100% sure it’s the result of HPPD. If I drink alcohol now, I do not feel ‘good’ drunk the way I did before HPPD. I do not drink much anymore due to this, and if I do, it’s purely for the taste and I do not drink enough to make me even remotely tipsy.

I got all of them, however I’ve had floaters and bfep prior to HPPD. All symptoms have decreased with time and rest, I no longer have any of them besides floaters and bfep (minimal).

The cause of my HPPD was taking 3 tabs of what I thought were LSD (actually nBOME) at once, which led to me tripping for 24 hours straight and then experiencing psychosis for a day after. It was pure hell for the first three months and it felt like my brain had become 'fried' for a lack of a better term, which scared me since I was and still am someone that is proud of my intelligence. Symptoms wise, I was constantly tripping for the first 3-5 months. DP/DR take their toll in this timespan as well. I was a senior in high school while this happened and was taking courses at my local university so it was very difficult to focus to say the least. Luckily got A's in all of my classes besides orgo chem (I got a D since I foolishly believed I could just cram for that exam the night before; I couldn't). The entirety of my senior year in high school I felt off and suffered from typical HPPD symptoms. I was worried that I had made a tragic mistake that would ruin the quality of my life for as long as I lived and as such acted in a paranoid manner. I would also get 'flashbacks' when I'd move my body at times, as if I were tripping for a short discrete period of time. I didn't keep records, but based off of estimates I'd say between the initial onset of HPPD (during the summer before the start of senior year of HS) and the end of HS I went from full blown HPPD to about 75% recovered. I believe the primary solutions that helped me reach that milestone were abstinence and living a healthier lifestyle in general. Of course, it wasn't a smooth path to goal either. There were days I'd be cramming for exams and go to class tripping while sleep deprived. There would also be times I would be in the middle of class and I'd get random anxiety attacks. After graduating and starting university, my symptoms slowly started to fade away. During my freshman year of college, I had at most 5 acid flashbacks and didn't face too many issues related to my HPPD. During sophomore year, and now junior year (which I'm currently in), I've faced no issues with HPPD besides my constant visual snow. Even this is something that I don't see as an issue since it has become a normal part of my life and causes me no problems whatsoever. In all honesty, the visual snow has become a funny, quirky thing about me that I tell to my close friends and we joke about it sometimes. I think what @scaredhuman said about just trying to live your life and getting your mental health on point is the best way to get over the symptoms and live a greater quality of life. As for my symptoms, I'd say I'm about 95-99% recovered. I wouldn't say I'm 100% recovered simply because if I walk into a pitch black room the visual snow is everywhere (RIP seeing pitch black ever again). TLDR: I had pretty severe HPPD that progressively improved over the course of 4 years to the point where I do not think about it anymore and it causes me 0 issues in my life.

In my experience, the symptoms have gradually faded away as I've abstained from alcohol + drugs and tried to live a healthier lifestyle in general. I no longer get bothered by my symptoms, all I have left is visual snow and it doesn't affect my quality of life whatsoever. It's been about 4 years since the onset of mine from nBOME.

Yeah, I'm split between applying to a Neuro PhD program, med school, or an MD-PhD program. I've always been a bit worried about 'losing' parts of my personality from spending nearly 24/7 of my time dedicating myself to academia or medicine so work-life balance is pretty important for me. I'm glad that you'll be able to finish, I couldn't imagine doing grad school during the pandemic.

Bit off topic but how has balancing grad school and life been?

I promise you that you won’t need to quit college due to symptoms, I had flashbacks during class back when I overloaded 21 credit hours at a uni while I was a senior in highschool and managed to get all A’s in every class besides one (a D in orgo chem, but that’s because I was a lazy bastard and started skipping all my orgo classes after getting an A on the first exam to try and flex). It’s been about 3 years now and I get no after images. The visual snow is only noticeable when I’m in the dark or staring at a dark object, and even then it makes absolutely no impact on my life. I got HPPD from nBOME, and after talking to Facebook users that got HPPD through the same drug they all mentioned that the visual snow always stuck but that it never became an issue after about 1-2 years. The frequency of acid flashbacks also went down significantly, last one I remember having was two years ago. If it’s reduction in symptoms you’re looking for, time will be your friend. Don’t do drugs ever again though, seriously. It’ll prolong your recovery time and at worst could relapse symptoms. The most I’ve done in the past year was get tipsy once and drunk once.

I'm also in college. I used to have terrible symptoms akin to yours the first year I've had HPPD but I managed to push through with my classes by doing my work and studying no matter how shitty I felt. You have to believe in your ability to bounce back and adapt to these new changes, which eventually got me back to baseline workwise (and now I'm better than I was before). Live clean and healthy, find something to dedicate yourself to, and life will become better.

Hey everyone, it's been a long time since I came back to this forum, haven't come on here in a while since I completely forgot about my HPPD for a bit. I've laid off all drugs and alcohol (even caffeine) for at least the past year and I feel pretty good. My symptoms are almost nonexistent, the one thing that's still around is the visual snow but I also don't notice it unless I try or if I'm looking at a solid color. From what I've gathered from some facebook users that got HPPD from the same drug I did (nBOME), the visual snow is there to stay but it's honestly fine at this point. The only thing I can really say that helped me for sure was abstinence and a healthy life style overall. If anyone has questions, feel free to ask.

I got my HPPD from nBOME as a disclaimer. the only real shitty symptoms that interfere with my life are sudden flashbacks if I’m sleep deprived. It’s making me reconsider my path to med school since sleep loss is basically mandatory even though the flashbacks are rare (happens maybe once every 2 months, it’s been less common as time goes by so hopefully it’ll phase out). Other than that, I’ve gotten used to everything else. The anxiety I used to have is unnoticeable, as are the visuals and thought loops. This doesn’t mean they’re gone, it just means that I have to focus on them for them to be relevant, it’s as if I’m ignoring them and putting them into the background.

Just to clarify, the protocol is fully developed? If so, that’s amazing. I’m a bit skeptic though since each drug causes different types of HPPD. I got mine from nBOME, and it seems like the effects and severity are different from HPPD from other drugs. It makes me wonder whether or not this research protocol will help me, although any research on finding a cure or better treatment is always welcomed. Do you have a timeframe for how long it may take for the research protocol to be released/worked on? I’d be willing to do anything I could to help, although there isn’t much I can do immediately besides raise awareness since I’m a freshman in college.

I drank 3 shots of 7% alcohol at a friend's place 2 days ago (not a smart thing to do since I have HPPD but I wanted to see if a small amount of alcohol would cause problems), resulting in me feeling mentally foggy and 'out of it' compared to my usual self. My visuals are slightly more noticeable as well, but it's nothing debilitating. I expected to be fine after drinking such a small amount of low-percentage alcohol since I had drunk whiskey on a plane about 2-3 weeks prior and had no noticeable issues later on. That isn't the main issue though. In the past 2 days, I've experienced a special type of flashback. Instead of visuals, my thigh muscles and head feel like they did when I was tripping, which I can only describe as slow-motion, warm and tingly. I'm wondering if anyone else has symptoms like this, and if so, what kind of drug did you take? I feel like the more details we document on this site, the better our chances of finding treatments for our symptoms based on a case by case basis. My HPPD first started from either acid or nBOME (I'm more inclined to think it was nBOME because of the harshness in the experience, don't try that stuff), and the symptom I've described above occurred once or twice after I took smaller hits of the same kind of 'acid' prior to my HPPD truly beginning. After my HPPD began, it happened maybe 1-4 times a week but slowed down until its eventual stop a few months later. I hope this information is helpful to anyone that has taken nBOME or anything similar. Feel free to ask any questions or relay information, I plan on checking this website routinely. PS: Lay off all the substances, it's so much easier to deal with HPPD and the risk isn't worth rebounding as Jay has mentioned in previous posts. Even alcohol has the potential for worsening symptoms so be careful out there.

Hey everyone, I’m currently in India on a trip with family that’s partly for graduating high school, but mostly for getting medical tests done. I told my parents that I didn’t know what I could get done to find out how my brain changed after my OD on nBOME, but they told me that they’d try to get some brain scans and blood tests to see if there were any changes or permanent damage. Are there any medical tests that would pick up on my HPPD?

Completed it today, I hope it helps!

Hey everyone! I’ve had HPPD for a little under a year now (OD’d in early August), I’m pretty lucky considering that the drug I took was nBOME and HPPD is all that I have as a long term sideeffect. This was the second time I took this drug, and I didn’t take it knowing it was nBOME though I suspected it was. I’m an 18 year old and I’ve had HPPD since I was 17. After my first trip on this drug (1 tab) I experienced very minor HPPD, I had no noticeable personality changes and the only thing that really happened was an isolated feeling of tripping in my left thigh (very weird). It didn’t bug me at all and it was actually kind of pleasant to feel. It occurred fairly rarely, about only once or twice a week. My second trip was hell. I popped 3 tabs into my mouth, pulled up some anime, and waited in my bed at 8 pm for it to hit. It was extremely overwhelming for around 2 hours at the peak. I remember that I forgot how society worked, I forgot that real life was a thing and I just basically went crazy for a bit. Eventually, I hit a point where I made the sudden realization that after death, I would cease to exist. Coming to terms with that at the peak of my trip really fucked me up, and it took quite a bit of time to get over it. After my trip, I entered a state of psychosis. I couldn’t sleep and just felt like absolute shit. The trip not ending when it should have initiated the psychotic state and I ended up having to tell my parents that I just took drugs. I finally fell asleep after around 30 hours from when I initially took the drug. Recovery was greatly aided by an electrolyte drink my dad got from CVS. After that time I felt pretty weird, I didn’t enjoy anything for some reason and brain felt really numb. Food tasted off, I didn’t enjoy listening to music that I loved before and watching tv was boring. I also felt like my personality went kind of blank. To fix that, I watched a YouTube channel called JK news, the hosts on there are pretty vibrant and it helped stimulate human contact so I could get the hang of it again before talking to friends. slowly but surely my brain has reached a level where I have minor visual issues that are unnoticeable when I get enough sleep. I find that drinking caffeine makes my symptoms more pronounced as well, so I’ve cut off drinking energy drinks to handle school and instead push myself to stay up if I need to. I remember trying to smoke weed to see if it would mess with my brain back in December (4 months after OD) and sure enough it gave me heavy brain fog and I noticed changes in my personality. as of right now, I feel pretty alright. HPPD hasn’t been as much of a nuisance in my life except for the very rare moments when I’ll stay up til 2 am studying for a test and start tripping heavily. I’m still able to do high level work, my class load of organic chemistry, calculus 4, differential equations, etc in my senior year of high school isn’t impaired by my HPPD and I’ve found that it’s been a huge incentive for me to live my life in a healthier manner. I’ve been sober ever since I smoked weed in December. To anyone that’s suffering and thinks that things won’t get better, they will. Time helps heal the brain. I went from feeling like my brain was fried to succeeding in all my hard courses while maintaining a good social life. Of course, I’m still looking for a way to eliminate my restrictions (caffeine, sleep, etc.), but life is still fulfilling. HPPD has made me more aware of how my brain functions in that I analyze things with much more awareness, which has its pros and cons but it’s still an overall bonus. Don’t let this condition keep you from achieveing your goals and dreams. I’d like to become a member of this forum since you guys are the only other people I know of that suffer from this. I plan on going into medschool and would like to become a neurosurgeon, maybe neurologist down the road if I can’t do surgery while sleep deprived. I’m hoping to start research into HPPD and will do everything I can to find out what happened and how to fix it.