DeLucid2018

For anybody still out there.. looks like dk let this board go into ruins... this use to be a community with(as even dr abrahm said which I feel is the only good thing or thought that came out that antidrug prick) is that the patient knows more then the doctor..words every Pdoc should take to heart..... This place use to have a good debate in the 90's.. back then and in to the melenium I was very propsychedelic so ost my shit was trip reports.... look.. ive had true hppd since I was 13.. and every few weeks ill prolly come check and answer and questions.... imold now and have diff opinions then I use to , kinda even feel bad for all the shit I use to give people....but in the end.. my side of the debate had a point.. HPPD can be confused with many things..... THE PRIMARY SYMPTOMS are illusions of movment, Tracers, Seeing color, Psychedelia art all over your visual perception.. and synesthesia (where even touch can produce afterimages).. etc … most of us have a Anxiety issues … Panic disorder, agoraphobia.... going outside and being social is a SENSORY OVERLOAD... for the majority.. the moderator and anyone who says I don't know what im talkin bout, listen to them and move on cause they care.. im just droping info cause I care about the community , I was raised with.. all seem to be gone now.. but I been here a few weeks so to speak... so ya might wana hear me out.. DP/DR can be confused with many conditions as well... shit burn out on pot ull have the classic symptoms.. THESE DISORDERS ARE VERY EASY TO PUT INTO YOUR MIND AS THE CAUSE OF YOUR ISSUE. but trust.... you may just be in a state where your seeking for answers and just putting similar to drugs mindstate.. This is to say, HPPD IS RARE I hope you don't have it, most prolly don't... its so fucking rare... that even tho its a DSM condition...many question its existence even in the psychedelic community(prolly cause they don't wana stop) and even many professionals think we are.. anyways HPPD is primary = VISUAL CONDITION Mental Conditions are secondary. Ive got all kinda mental problems.. HPPD was the CATALYST. That lead over the decades to severe anxiety and psychosis.. the hppd hasn't got worse.. but living with it for ages can really get to you.. the anxiety starts first.. around the same year.. then antisocial behavior.. then I self medicated and cant say it was all hppd, cause I dabbled in every substance to man to an extreme from 18on, im 34, about 35. so ive nearly spent half my life self-medicating etc... HPPD People, if you have it, never use stimulants.. it lead to a combo disorder combrid? Psychosis became perm.. and HPPD as always is the major Catalyst to everything ive done in the last 20 years.. I use to brush it off... but man when you get this old you realize... that a stable picture....man...thatd e a real trip... so as you sit in the muck, take care of yourself.. if you believe to def have hppd… psychiatric drugs.... ALC and benzos are the only things that help.... everything else.... psychiatry wise(antipsychotics mad me crazier Invega, Halidol, Latudia) fucked my mind up worse made me calm but just ….bored. hard to overcome that... ssri and snris - trycyclic antidepressiants trazadone and doxepin etc.. just don't do what they say... they don't even know how in the end they are suppose to help, all they got is clinical trial data that trust me in 20 years will be laughed at.. so try hard... to just relax... learn to be comfortable being uncomfortable.. don't fight it.. it won already... learn to enjoy ur eccentric nature and you can get by... its a hard road.... id say more but I need to sleep.. so everyone talk shit and I may be back to answer.. love and hope to you all.. PEACE -Lucid

to clarify... visual snow is a dampening of the vision.. diabetes.. some say some prescription pills... many things cause vision issues.. HPPD is a psychedelic poster.. sitting still.. starring at a solid white wall.... if you don't see 'colorful' geometrix blanketing the non-textured solid white paint.... then id say.. if im wrong and I may be.. that your way better off then I am.... and id wonder if , and I say this with very much experience...………………….. that you may be ok, just growin up, took some psychedelic hallucinogen.... and are afraid and really..... hypocondria searchin.. the net these days... lol.. type some symptoms and your gonna find a bad answer.. this is a good thing, could be a better answer! don't stick to a self diagnosis if you were permafried homie.. youd know.. no question.

I only say the no hppd thing as ive been saying on these boards for half my life.. its easy to mistake hppd.. as a cause for a personal mental condition..... its a good thing to not have HPPD it WILLNEVER GO AWAY.. lol haven't done psychedelics in ages and still trippin turn 35 next week been postin on hppd boards since I was 15.... calm urself.... itd be a good thing.. visual snow? a million reasons for that.. if ur livin in a underwater world.. like u litterly see movment everywhere.... no stability... then you got hppd.. imo … your right.. im kinda outdated... if urs is less good for you!!! im glad like many say... that I saw more on psychedelics that's why my hppd is worse... but man.. if you saw through my eyes sober.. ud back the fuck off... good call tho, nice to see those still trying ta help.. me? im just a midleages grump and been this way since 16 lol... don't pay attention. HPPD is THE LAST DIAGNOSIS YOU WANT.. HAVE HOPE! see a doctor. they don't know shit.. but … you may not be burnt.

um dude... I been in the mental health program for over 10 years.. done Prozac ungodly amounts of paxil…. and nowadays even my docs etc call um bs... not opinion homie... they are only power of suggestion... kinda like antipsychotcs…. I have perm-psychedelia mixed with a lot of psychosis these days and trust me... and my docs lol... that psycho-pharmacology and psychiatry is in its infancy... sry bro, know what im fuckin talkin bout

do what you want.. at 17 dude? u better or ull regret that shit.... homie... drugs will catch up.. [edited]

BTW not a recommendation

heres a trip dude... I was hearin voices so clear.. for a couple years man... I got off the dope tho but it stayed man.... I had a seizure on tramadol and latudia and haven't had real psychosis since.. its really scary ...but theres some truth in rebootin the brain.

btw - yes hppd is veery linked by bad trips which can lead toptsd.

imagine degenerative hppd… ive lost my mind man... still very lucid... which is unheard of... but im sure 20+years in hppd will cause some oddity in anyone right? ha... I couldent even begain to describe my weird ass life these days man... auditory... maddnesss.. im still here tho lol. fuck the devil I maintain!

u ever seen a static tv bad signal, pold enough? imagine that in the 60's and uh ya

no dude.... u got a chemical imbalance.... not hppd try no pill's ssri's = jokes inthis day and age .. don't fuxz withthemssri's just causes sideffects.

http://www.stormloader.com/hppd/ dosent even exist anymore, odd was there a year or 3? back... remember showin it to my old girl. sux

I have prolly only posted a few times in half a decade, I was a teenager in the 90's and just don't have the drive to debate anymore... makes me weak.

speakin of, wtf happened to meth lab? he was the original head of HPPD.... someone I sgtill value as a fucking if not the most, pioneer of this group... last I saw of him he was bingeing and I was trying to keep the peace and he just lost it... I miss that dude man, prolly one of the most memorable people ive ever come acrossed. hope hes well.. you all owe a lot to that dude and pogb, who I cant remember why he disappeared.... think it was pre-hppdonline

hppdonline, was 2003 I think,,, DK gets credit where credit is due, we don't get along much anymore but it was the jumnp from stormloader/hppd to hppdonline(DK's work) my name and who I was at the time, somewhat of a posterboyfor hppd that got hppdonline off the ground..