I remember feeling that way for years. I wish I could've slapped myself out of it. Trust me. You won't feel the same way later. That being said I do sympathize with you.
Keep looking for any kind of relief from your anxiety and depression. Once those are under control you can appreciate life. You can also pm me whenever you want
I am very interested about the imune connection. I started the Paleo AI protocol diet a couple months ago. Including making my own bone broth. I felt a lot better. I got busy at work and fell off. Gonna start again and add probiotics
The most interesting thing to me is that you have fibromyalgia. Auto immune disease seems to be rampant with hppd. I also just read a study from Stanford University linking immune and gut health to alzheimers disease
Alcohol, weed and other drugs used to help me escape. The problem is everything stops working or the next couple days I felt worse. After a couple days when I would get back to baseline I would do it again. Since I've found this forum. I've changed my diet, take thiamine and small amount of Keppra
weed is not only bad for anxiety sufferers. I used to get terrible anxiety when I went anywhere near weed. Now I can smoke as much as I want in any form anxiety free. The next day I will feel more depressed and more DR.