I remember feeling that way for years. I wish I could've slapped myself out of it. Trust me. You won't feel the same way later. That being said I do sympathize with you.
Keep looking for any kind of relief from your anxiety and depression. Once those are under control you can appreciate life. You can also pm me whenever you want
I am very interested about the imune connection. I started the Paleo AI protocol diet a couple months ago. Including making my own bone broth. I felt a lot better. I got busy at work and fell off. Gonna start again and add probiotics
The most interesting thing to me is that you have fibromyalgia. Auto immune disease seems to be rampant with hppd. I also just read a study from Stanford University linking immune and gut health to alzheimers disease