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Everything posted by Onemorestep

  1. No problem bud. If you can, yes. Especially if you’ve drank and noticed it effects you differently from before. Many report that alcohol makes their hppd worse, albeit temporarily for most. Alcohol kinda has a very dirty chemical moa. I can’t think of any brain disorder where it’s recommended. Hell there isn’t even a safe daily amount set by the government anymore. there is some beliefs here on this website that hppd involves some measure of brain injury as a component (scary word but such a common injury). If looking at it this way, one would deff want to avoid
  2. I’ve gone through fast tapers. I don’t recommend it... it’s much better to make a liquid solution and taper so slowly you don’t notice. It’s the easiest on your brain too. my friend did 7 years maxing out at your dose. He went too fast. this isn’t meant to make you anxious, just IMO, you will be in withdrawal for 1-2 years. You can either taper so slow you barely notice, or you can go fast and be in hard withdrawals for 1-2 years. The time will still be the same; the only difference is how much you suffer during that period. I don’t outright say this often but you
  3. Tried it and didn’t notice anything like this! It’s very sedating though for me haha. Gave me some not unpleasant head pressure? Made me need some b12 badddd though for some reason.
  4. Glad to hear you’re being proactive. Keep us updated at the very least it’s nice to have a record of your reaction to come back to in the future if you need it.
  5. Abstinence is the only known thing that can help with time for certain. After a period (its months to years) some leave this “sensitized state” I call the acute phase of hppd. They then either recover or enter the chronic phase. even if you feel “normal” after a period of time, you can still be in the sensitization state and a psych can throw you back in 10x worse than the time before. A mistake I’ve made in the past is thinking in past this stage when I am really not. It’s really quite fascinating in the exponential quality of the increasing intensity of it. even if you
  6. I get this periodically. It’s incredibly irritating at best. I’ve had all sorts of muscular issues since getting hppd though. AFAIK nothing to just take and make it go away... I just do a lot of exercises to chill it out. I find a breath in for 3 seconds into the diaphragm, then upper chest, then belly followed by a 10 second even exhale helps it. Takes some time and practice but it’s also fantastic for excess adrenaline.
  7. I had a very positive reaction mentally. For some it really can “cure”. Remember to take b6 at least if you take it. It can lower those levels for some reason and that creates some of the side effects. Probably couldn’t hurt to throw in some other b vitamins if/when you take it and see how you feel. Physically I had a very bad reaction. But my reaction was exceedingly rare and I’ve never encountered anyone with a similar experience so honestly no point in getting into it. I should have known better than to try it, as I’ve had bad reactions to this class of drug before. Most consider
  8. Blunting is putting it lightly... mostly I just had sympathy for others. Only the worst suffering could evoke empathy. Additionally, It was like my threshold/bar for feeling intense emotion had been severely raised. My baseline existence was the opposite of the empathogenic feeling many reported during a hallucinogenic trip. I felt very removed from humanity. now.... well it’s difficult to even watch Netflix sometimes without tearing up haha. Something very interesting is experiencing emotion this way and consuming media I did pre and post this experience. When one has access to a dif
  9. Update: emotional range still increased. No diminishment in this effect. Some symptoms of hppd was exacerbated and continues to be. As of now, the symptoms are relatively stable. Mostly brain fog similar to that experienced with delta-9-thc, stress tolerance reduction, and increased anxiety in the evening after sunset. .25mg of Ativan removes majority of evening anxiety. I had an “event” where I fell asleep in a soft shell hyperbaric chamber and awoke 2 hours later with very heightened anxiety. This progressed into minor hppd hallucinations as the night went on. Later, e
  10. If anyone has any interest in the gate keeping abilities of cb receptors in our brains (as it relates to dopamine). https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5608040/
  11. Nicotine is interesting to me. I have had the positive reaction you’ve mentioned and the negative reactions many people report at different times with my hppd. something interesting— nicotine helps alleviate a lot of the negative cognitive side effects of cannabis. https://selfhack.com/blog/top-6-unique-super-effective-ways-counteract-negative-performance-effects-cannabismarijuana/
  12. Fascinating. You know one day when it comes out all of what the fuck this is... I’ll just eat my hat because sometimes there doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason.
  13. I wonder if copper may help. If it does, this effect may be because of problems with dopamine b-hydroxylase. Complete shot in the dark.
  14. I aggravated my own hppd temporarily pretty bad one time by staying up for 48 hours and then drinking 8 beers in about 2... it’s definitely possible. the timeline for these things is always of extreme interest to me. Especially when symptoms occur weeks or months after the self reported intake of a chemical.
  15. A therapist—even better. You would have more patients than I think many would admit if you sought them out. Although it’s described as rare, I believe it’s incredibly prevalent. In fact I LIVED with three people in a single year in college who acquired it—two the year before meeting me and one during our time together...and not one knew what it was called. For something that is supposed to be “very rare”, having four out of five people in a home with a disorder seems an astronomical coincidence. AFAIK, none of them are doing especially well emotionally and could all benefit from therapy.
  16. I’m glad you’re alright!! Also while I’m sorry the anxiety has driven you to learn so much, I can’t say I’m disappointed there is someone out there without hppd who can spread awareness. I'm sure whatever you end up doing for work you will tackle with a ferocity
  17. A lot of people come to his forum for that very reason—reassurance that if they do what we did then they won’t end up like us.... ...this is like going into a cancer ward and trying to get people to say it’s okay for you to have a cigarette every once in a while . I actually hope you don’t acquire hppd mostly because (aside from it being hell) I think there will be great novel cannabinoid therapies for bpd that will allow you to feel “normal” in the future but without the side effects of being on thc... but having hppd can really mess with your ability t
  18. “The French philosopher Jean Paul Sartre, for example, complained of being followed by crabs after a trip on mescaline.” A Frenchman complaining of being beset by crabs? Nonsense. ...couldn’t resist
  19. Hi Justan— I just want to add that the brain is highly plastic at your age I know it sounds really dumb when “adults” say you shouldn’t drink and do drugs until a certain age but that is because your brain is actually still developing hahah. What adults should add, after that, is if you wait to do these things until your brain has cemented a bit, you will have a more enjoyable experience with substances over the whole of your life, and more likely (and most importantly to me) a greater baseline happiness. do you have hppd? No one here can tell for certain if you have or are s
  20. Truly something I worry about every time I post on here about anything. But, and I mean no disrespect —this is a super valid fear and concern— that line of thinking leaves us without a message board. We’re not doctors, nor do we understand the etiology of this disorder (it always feels like it’s not enough to say disorder. What word do you use when half of you is ripped away?). There are a lot of things that have helped me that hurt others and vice versa. I’ve taken things on this website that others have had “no response” to that sent me into hell. And I’ve sent others into hell who
  21. Update: emotional range is still increased. Before hppd I would always cry during emotional scenes during movies. That ceases with hppd onset and never returned, even during very good periods. Now, that is back. In fact, sometimes I can cry at will now. it is still my belief that delta-8-thc can exacerbate hppd and should be approached with extreme caution. this did not “cure” me. In fact, my overuse has very much hurt me. If I didn’t have access to extremely good medical care (hyperbaric chambers, so many supplements, free time to heal, etc etc) I would be in a whole hea
  22. I take pramipexole once every few days. Started one year ago. At first I took it everyday and turreted up to 1mg. It makes me feel like SHIT, sleep terrible, and feel terrible the whole next day... followed by 3 good days. It took quite a long time for it to start making me feel bad. about 6 months I think. It’s why I titrrated down to lowest possible dose. it really helps me with my anhedonic depression. I can enjoy and seek things out that used to give me pleasure.... ... and I don’t seem to have DAWS from it which is a real real threat when taking it. I stil
  23. Link is broken for me :x I take lions mane occasionally but holy shit it makes me BLACK BLACK DEPRESSED if I take it too many days in a row. All I can do is sleep and contemplate death. This wears off in 24-48 hours. Understanding my relationship with acetylcholine helps me not overdo it with lions mane.
  24. What connective tissue issues have you experienced? I’ve had a lot of muscular problems since early on in my hppd. They e gotten quite severe at points... I’ve suspected connective tissue issues as well.
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