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Byron, buddy, I think you have an excellent chance for recovery. I'm sorry you've had such a rough time of it, but I can tell you that change is possible and when you're in the middle of something, that is the scariest time. Many years ago I used to have the gnarliest social anxiety, and it would feel like I wasn't there (depersonalization), that I had nothing to contribute, and that others were just inherently better than me. But I fought for myself because I didn't want to live a life riddled with anxiety, and there IS IS help dude. Therapy, some medication along the way, reading helpful books, getting more involved in things i loved (reading, sports, friends, eventually college, then much later a masters degree) all helped. I think the hardest thing about feeling anxious/panicky is the sense of being stuck, or that it will "always" be that way ("what will other people think?"), and having to hide it from other people, cuz there can be some shame that comes with it (and I think that's especially hard for us guys). But if you're feeling panicky/anxious, then i'm sure you have your reasons, and your body/mind are telling you something. I wish you all the best in the world, hang in there, seek out help

VinnyJ, my short answer is this: take it easy with the blunts, dawg! Marijuana (and other strands) is a known, well-researched psycho-stimulant, and can induce "flashbacks." I'd give your brain a break, (seriously) eat more veggies, maybe take some 5HTP, drink enough water, exercise a lil more...just take it easy! And maybe take a break before puffing the magic dragon again. GL

Yes! Both great anti-anxiety medications! I'm not a psychiatrist, but I work with them at my job. Propranolol is a beta blocker, non-addictive, and often prescribed for performance anxiety, or to treat panic disorders. In the past i've taken Lexapro, and it really helped with my anxiety. Coming off it sucked though, and I felt like there were fireworks going off in my brain, turns out that is a researched phenomenon! http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/creativity-way-life/201107/fireworks-or-brain-zaps Cheers

"HPPD is a DSM-IV diagnosis with diagnostic code 292.89." Source: Wikipedia (the most reliable source ever) *All I can say about my own experiences is with what is most likely HPPD, is that over the years i've just grown used to it. I'm now almost 34 and a mental health professional, and my drug experimentation years were a decade ago in college, where I did a decent amount of LSD and some other drugs. You may or may not be able to change the visual distortions (for me sometimes nothing seems "solid," colors blend, halos around bright, stark backgrounds, and more), but I was also dealing with issues of anxiety and some depression that came before the drug experimentation. Just having supportive friends, my own therapy, growing up...all of it helped, and now i'm just me, and have a different way of seeing the world