I am extremely deppressed , I am never concious in social atmospheres I find myself thinking about it or denying it etc, I think I'm going crazy, I find myself responding very slow in conversation and in a way I think I'm going dumb, STRESS IS TAKING OVER, ANXIETY IS AT ITS WORST. 1st LSD TRIP: Worst feeling ever panic attack living hell. 2nd LSD TRIP: Gained up some positivity and tried it but found myself very confused and just staring at everything. I JUST WANT MY LIFE BACK AGAIN, MY NORMAL BRAIN , ACTIVE AND STRATEGIC, NOT SLOW SHY STRESSED AND ANXIOUS. People around me are just living life speaking & as they're speaking I wonder , where do you gain the confidence & mental power to speak so boldly? I want my old life.