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ScaredSober

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  1. Hi everyone, I'm 21 years old and just recently started experimenting with drugs. I started smoking half a year ago and have recently experimented with psychedelics. I loved mushrooms, they were life changing... they changed my mental perception of life. Mushrooms are extremely hard to find in the area I live, so I went with an easier to acquire alternative and bought some LSD tabs. I gained nothing from LSD no new wisdom no change on my outlook of life... just some very bad visual and auditory trips. I gave it a few chances all 4 times that I used it I had bad trips, ranging from paranoia and anxiety to overwhelming visuals - inception status - So I gave up on LSD and quit it's use about 3 weeks ago. However I feel like it's still lingering with me. I have read all your accounts of H.P.P.D ( Visual Snow, After images, trailing, starburst, patern shifting, moving static objects ) and am confused to whether I also am suffering from this. My Symptoms: When ever I took mushrooms I knew it was kicking in by staring at my "popcorn ceiling" it would slowly start moving and shifting and as the trip got stronger it would move faster and more chaotic. Then as I was coming down it would slow down until it stop moving all together sometime the following morning. ​So I grew to like popcorn ceiling because I could accurately measure how intoxicated I was by glancing at it. It's been 3 weeks now since my last use of LSD, I have none of the other symptoms, but every-time I look at popcorn ceiling it's moving for me. At first I laughed it off, now it's worrying me. I started asking my friends if they felt the same, none of them had any problems after using LSD and a few still use it often. I seem to be the only one with this lingering issue. Does anyone have any insight they can throw my way? Is this just extremely mild H.P.P.D? I completely quit all drug use out of fear it is to get worst. THE MAIN THING THAT BOTHERS ME I recently opened a Hookah Lounge that is doing very well. I smoke Hookah every day, few hours a day. Yes I know the physical health issues associated with my lifestyle, but my real underlining fear is that the Nicotine will push me further into this mental illness. This is my livelihood. What do you guys think? I feel like the fear of it getting worst is worst than the actual symptoms I'm feeling right now... this is horrible. For all you suffering out there and living day by day like this... much respect and I wish you the best.
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