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ShamanoftheWoods

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  1. Brake, I know what you mean. I don't get the euphoria at all. I'm stuck at quite the opposite lately, I'm afraid. I constantly feel depressed, nervous, and on the verge of anger. I feel like I'm going completely insane. Everything still sounds like I'm peaking, really bad... Last night I layed awake in bed for 3 hours unable to sleep because I kept hearing all these sounds. It sounded like I was surrounded by water and all of it was boiling. Or like their were UFO's surrounding my house. It gets kinda frightening. I'm starting to wonder if this is just HPPD, or if I awakened some dormant form of psychosis that was bound to develop anyways. My parents told me I have always been a little "off". And I was already diagnosed with some mental disorders (depression, anxiety, possibly bipolar disorder but that one wasn't diagnosed, just suspected), I'm starting to wonder if their was maybe more lying beneath the surface that I brought out.
  2. Thank you for all the help guys. Lately, I have gone back to trying St. John's Wort. It didn't work previously but it seems to be helping a lot with my anxiety, depression, and DP/DR lately. I added DHA, basic multivitamins, and made changes to my diet. I cut back on cigarettes drastically. I have seen lessening of symptoms. They come back when I feel very stressed though, and I have felt quite stressed this last week. Sorry for dropping off the face of the Earth for a while there. I recently reenrolled in school, and work full time. My schedule has been quite hectic. Been exercising more too. The only problem is, when I exercise my symptoms get really bad for a few hours to a few days. I feel foggy and confused, everything gets further and closer from me at the same time. Objects that touch walls appear to have large areas of space behind them. Tracers. Auditory hallucinations (bubbling sounds, echoes, random static, etc). And lots of visual static or spots. Every now and then I see colorful lines just appear from nowhere. They like to spiral and swim in front of me. I'm trying to decide if I should just stop exercising all together, or just cut down the intensity. But if I don't exercise my depression gets awful.
  3. Greetings everyone, I'm new here. I reside in Mississippi. I've had HPPD for a few years now. I have been a frequent guest to this site and finally decided it was about time to join. I had hoped for a long time that my HPPD would vanish if I quit my use/abuse of LSD and mushrooms (especially LSD). I have finally come to terms that it will not. For the longest time, I did not believe HPPD existed, and certainly not that it could happen to me. I know so many people who have always done tryptamines and phenethylamines and never developed it. So I figured why would I? But I did. I've been working to find a way to get past the severe depression and anxiety I feel with every passing day through natural means. I do not want to take any drugs. I have been addicted to drugs since the age of 5 (I was placed on several drugs at my doctors recommendation for anxiety and depression that we later discovered were addictive and had nasty withdrawl effects, as well as regular side effects for me). That was when I had my first taste of the highs and lows of prescription medications and coming off of them. I stay as far away from them as possible now, but if they work for you then that is wonderful. Does anybody know anything that may help me with my depression and anxiety? I have tried St. John's Wort (it made me suicidal, I attempted to kill myself within one month of daily use). I am currently trying 5-HTP. However, it makes my HPPD worse. Nothing too bad though... My visuals consist of spinning of objects. Things appear to get closer then further away. Ripples of my surroundings. The ground bleeds together. I see leaves on trees as words and letters. I see smiles spinning all over the place. No halos or anything of that nature that I have heard people discuss though. It has gotten to where I now have difficulty speaking and thinking properly. Everything gets jumbled up. Any help would be appreciated.
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