hi all, really good forum. two months ago i had a really bad trip of 25-c nbome 1000mics (i think) for 10 - 12 hours of hell. i had to be insane and paranoic during it, it caused me a lot of bad feeling with a lot of physical and mental distress, panic attaks, the worst time of my life. I ve developed hppd (classic symptoms ) and if i close my eyes i still see patterns and colored rotating forms, if i focus too much on it , i can see it also with open eyes and i tour into a bad trip and i feel bad for a lot of time, as i return in the same trip. but hppd is not the only thing . I have always a strange kind of headache, nausea and i feel on the point of fainting , and anxiety , it's permanent , a lot of derealization , i feel as i came to have a mental illness.... . i am paralized at home , i cannot do anything as before , i feel double stressed, maybe depressed... my doc , he had never hear hppd, gives me xanax and cipralex( an ssri antidepressant) , i take xanax for the first month of cure without cipralex, it has distract me from anxiety , but now it seems don't do the same effect, so i started to take cipralex yesterday ( hearing doc again), i'm trying to accept hppd , but the anxiety is too much for me and i can't live with it i integrate myself with fish oil and vitamins , i've done magnetic resonance but it seems all ok i would listen some advice for this really devastating situation. Is it possibe i've destroyed something in the serotonine process? is it ok in my situation an ssri anidepressant? and generally : when does hppd usually remains? and could have i some good expectation in my situation? sorry for my bad english