JokerDeadMan113

Thanks to evrybody for fast responce.Finaly i stopped and thinked about me and my life,and realize that i have to fight this any way i know and can.But i have one more question,i know i will look very very stupid askig you this but i am ina very big dilema.If my hppd goes away can i trie some things.Let me explain today i was doing a lot of thinking,not about will i stop smokin or drinking,right a way i said i ll stop,i took my stash of weed and threw it out.But as i said i did alot of thinking .I never tried any drug exeptc weed and Galaxy,but im a person who likes to try difrent things(not just drugs)but more imortantly expirience new things,so this question might seem stupid but i got to ask.If my hppd goes away can do a little experimenting with drugs caous i was thinking about what if i never get to try these thing that tought make me very very depressed,more depressed than before,couse i wanna try anything good or bad and if i cant i feel like i am restricted that i am not free and to me freedom is most important thing of all.So i can live without cocaine,speed and stuff like thaht(i would like to try but if can fuck me up than no).I know i will look stupid to you but i wanna try halucinogens so bad ,especialy shrooms and lsd, couse i wanna expirience the world another way ,a different way.So if hppd goes and after few monts of living normaly can i experiment with drugs and hallucinogens(i know very well that they are worst for the hppd)but i so wanna trie that.And one more question after my hppd goes away if it goes away can i get back to using alchochol and weed ocasionaly on partys and shit.I no your answer will probly be no but iam ina very big dilema and i kwon i need to get this straight before moving on.

Hi,i need someones opion.So im 14 and i developed hppd like 6 month ago.Since then my life is breaking apart .Every day im more and more depressed,when im alone all i think about is hppd and that makes me sad,but i became more anxious and deppresed thinking about me,stuff like why i cant be normal,like any other teenager,why is this happening to me.I feel that i am alone in all of this.I feel that i am tottaly diffrent than rest of the world although comon sence tells me there are alot of people with the same problem.So i have 2 questions that i would like you to give me opinion or recomendation.First,can you tell me how to handle and cope with depression and all this?Befor the second question i wanna tell you how i got hppd.I develop hppd from smoking to much Galaxy Herbal Insence(kind of synthetic cannabis ),so i started smoking this day after day,and one day i was alone and had half of pack of Galaxy(recommend is to make 5 joints from one pack)I put half of pack into a blunt.Then i started triping,whic is very un usual ,couse glaxy is like a weak version of weed,so i started to se all colors like shinning and illuminating and then evrything dissapeard and i saw sam liht balls like stars around me.Everything else was black.Then visuals stopped but i started to her loud granade-like explosions in my head and they would change its frequency(first it goes like 2 in 5 seconds and then faster till i felt my head exploded and the it would come down and again for 2 h)so after that i had hppd.Wich got worsen over time.i never tred any drugs exepct weed wich i smoke almost on daily bases ,i cant stop becous it helps me sleep couse im afraid of the dark and it helps me with sleep paralysis and lucid dreams.So to my second question.I m very impresd by hallucinogens especialy lsd,so my question is can i try lsd,I know it can worsen the hppd,but i wanna ask you does hppd get worse while on trip or the trip take s over so you dont even notice.Consider that trying lsd is one of my biggest wishes.and one more ima depressed a lot when i am alone,but with company i am the happiest guy in the world,so if i try lsd not being depressd at that moment.Can that deppresion become activ on trip(i know evrybody can have bad trip)So im worried about how wil deppresion and hppd(especialy hppd) affect me while on trip.I hope you can give me your opinion.....btw sorry for bad grammar.