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Good idea! Thanks, I guess I'm just hard on myself sometimes. I don't have any DP/DR. I feel very grounded in reality, so I'm fortunate in that sense. I do have social anxiety, but I'm pretty sure that has more to do with circumstances in my life and how I relate to people than anything to with drugs/HPPD. I was constantly bullied and didn't have any close friends throughout most of middle and high school and I've never quite recovered from that. Funnily enough, I was on antidepressents during most of that time (37.5mg Effexor w/10mg Lexapro) along with various ADHD meds because I was misdiagnosed until last year, when a psychologist explained Asperger's to me and EVERYTHING made sense. That alone lifted me out of my pit of despair, and while I still go through depressive phases, I've been able to be productive (about to graduate with a double major in math/economics in a few months). I look at pills as a very last resort. In my opinion, much of Western medicine is anti-health. Instead of taking a holistic view and trying to figure out what is actually wrong with you, many (not all) doctors would rather shove a pill down your throat to cover up the problem because it's easier for them and gets them more money. I'm a living example of this. I spent most of my formitive teenage years in an apathetic haze (9+ years on antidepressants) and while I wasn't suicidal, I wasn't really happy either. I feel like Big Pharma robbed me of much of my childhood. So I've been taking natural supplements like omega-3, exercising, volunteering, and most importantly, forcing myself into social situations where I know I'm going to be uncomfortable so one day I can convince myself that it's not so bad. If you want to take antidepressants to deal with HPPD, it's your choice, but lifestyle changes should always come before any chemical. You'd be amazed how much simply keeping yourself busy takes your mind of the bad things. I made the video on a new YouTube account because I didn't want anyone to find out my real name. It's possible a potential employer could see it, but unlikely...I think we definitely need a lot more videos like this. Like -mg said, wear a beard if you have to lol. And much thanks to the admin that made this an article, I really appreciate it.

^ yeah I saw that vid too, one of the few that are easily found on YT lol. Maybe there's a lot more but they're just buried under all the junk you get when you search "HPPD".

Just wanted to make this topic to share a video I made about my experiences with HPPD. I read indigochild's thread (he has some pretty popular vids on the subject) and saw his comment about how he wishes there were more HPPD vids. I too am surprised at how few there are on YT. Let me know what you think. I know my speech skills aren't stellar, but I did my best to explain. This post has been promoted to an article

Yeah I used to think my symptoms were pretty cool and entertaining actually but after 6 months I'm sick of them. Taking 2c-e is the biggest regret of my entire life, if it has made my vision worse, who knows how else it may have fucked my head up? The fact that no one knows is scary, people need to be warned against these research chemicals more. The worst part is had I not taken it I probably would have been just fine (I haven't heard of people getting HPPD from only shrooms, only from artificial stuff like X, LSD, RC's, etc.) and I REALLY enjoy shrooms... Also, any sort of stimulant makes my HPPD way worse. This includes Ritalin, Adderall etc. as well as just caffeine. If I even drink a glass of Coke my visuals go bonkers. This is kind of a good thing actually as it has forced me to stop drinking soda lol. I only drink water, milk, and juice now.

Hey guys, well I've come to terms with the fact that I have this, but my symptoms overall seem to be a bit different than most cases I've read about here. My main symptom is "glowy" afterimages. For example, if you stare at something red for a few seconds then look away, the afterimage should be greenish. For me however, the borders of the afterimage tend to glow extra colors that don't make sense (like purple or silver) in a neon-like fashion. I'm not sure if I have palipnosia (excessive afterimages) also or I just pay more attention to the afterimages now because they have weird and brighter colors to them. I also have little spots that come and go in my vision. They're like tiny spotlights that fade after 5 seconds or so. I swear there is a medical name for this but I can't find it, if anyone knows please post. The third, and weirdest main symptom, is closed eye visuals at night or when I'm tired. Sometimes I'll see something mundane, and other times incredible fractals or Dali-esque landscapes. It's very much like the CEV's under a good dose of mushrooms, except not as clear. (BTW I got all this from Spice and 2c-e, and it was made slightly worse by weed and mushrooms). I don't have any new neurological symptoms or dp/dr as far as I can tell. I'm pretty fucked up mentally as it is anyway and have been diagnosed with Asperger's, ADHD, anxiety, the whole nine yards, so I guess it's best to remain completely sober from now on. Anyway I'm interested in hearing about other HPPD symptoms that are outside the norm, as well as what drug or drugs have caused it.