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downlink00

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  1. Ferret- Thanks. I'm gonna give that a shot. I'll give it a couple weeks then post what I think for everyone else. Thanks again.
  2. Are there any recommendations that don't involve further drug use? Especially, mind or mood altering drugs.... I find that many of these drugs come with thier own dependancies. In other words; I don't like to think that my hppd is getting worse with out a drug when in fact the withdrawals from the drug is what's triggering the hppd....
  3. Practicing control. I allot about an hour each night where I'll engage in a triggering activity. For me; it's just music and some colored lights, maybe bang on some drums. This will trigger my visuals pretty good. I call it bleeding out. Kind of like getting it out of you system... Giving yourself time to focus on it seems to strengthen you abilty to focus on ignoring it... Just my 2 cents. I'm not a doc and my case is rather severe.
  4. That's the jist of it. It kind of came back all at once starting with a major 9 - 10hr episode. Since then its like someone changed the flim (as I have been called it). There are lots of triggers. I can even trigger at will. Have you seen this video yet - http://hppdonline.com/index.php?/gallery/image/8-demonstrationg-image/ For some reason, one glance at that and I see that pattern across my entire vision. If that is anywhere in my sight; it happens and it doesn't fade away. I can see through it but it is difficult and actually required focus. What drives me crazy is how fast it moves. I am yet to believe it is not a video. I have tried everything to see that "image" normally. Not only is it impossible but it is, surprisingly, a VERY powerful trigger. It has the same effect everytime I look at it and I can't even seem to weaken it. Leaving that on for 10 minutes will liturally leave me insane. A blank stare with drool coming out of my mouth. Kind of like an epileptic in front of a strobe light. - Of course that is not typical. It's just that picture really tiggers something. I think one of the docs put that on there as I mean trick....
  5. Making life crazy - i have gotten use too. Making me crazy is what I am worried about... I got PTSD during childhood.... I was later deployed to 2 wars were it was idenfied, via me not remembering dramatic events. I developed HPPD during my teen years. Primarily due to an accidental overdose. It took a couple years or so after the overdose before I started to not notice the visuals. I am in my mid thirties now and tripping harder then I ever have in my life (no drugs involved). It's a 24hr / 7 day a week thing that seems to be getting progressively worse. The lighter end of it; the visual examples used on this website show it perfectly. On the more intense times it is a full on hallucinative state where the visuals become strong in color, have no relation to reality and are no longer transparent. As you can imagine, mentally; this is like being on a rollercoaster that never stops. One thing I have learned during my survival is that HPPD (as I have learned to call it), is also a direct connection to your subconscious... Just like the drugs that cause it; there are parts of it that you can not control and there are parts of you that gains greater control. It is kind of like living under your own hipnosis. Controlling your state of mind is the key. - I only say this becouse I have read story after story from people who I wouldn't classify as serious users but seem to have serious life problems resulting from it. My life story is a typical rags to riches. I grew up homeless and left without a family (on the streets) at a very young age. Now, let just say life is very good. Well, the parts I am around for anyways....lol {People don't see what you see and they only think you're crazy if you tell them.}
  6. I have really enjoyed looking through this site. I was starting to think I was the only one… I’m very interested in following this research and plan to keep an eye on this site. I am looking for successful treatment stories and plans. Please share yours.
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