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  1. I waste too much time worried about a lot of things that I don't have control over, but I also have a lot of control of preparing my family to spend another three months in 100% quarantine because that is what I have agreed to do. Dr. Abraham is retired 100%, and I am unable to do any work at the time as I am primary caregiver to my mother who has 1 kidney, COPD, congestive heart failure, pacemaker and defibrillator and she lives at our family home, which we plan on selling eventually, but in the mean time I am the only family member that can do my best to keep the coronavirus out, which i
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  2. No problem, this disorder can be debilitating but a lot of the struggle is due to manufactured stress by ourselves (we can be our own worst enemies by worrying all the time!). What worked for me was staying busy and healthy and keeping my mind occupied. By healthy I mean -stop all drugs -get as much sleep as you can -exercise -eat well -And stay positive! Life is beautiful and it will get better if you cut drugs out. Also, it's nice to know that lots of people make a full recovery if given enough time. The next few months will probably be rough but reach out
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  3. Hey all, I'm the journalist who was looking for interview subjects last month. The article has, at long last, been published. Among other details, my article features a history of HPPD that stretches back to the 19th-century; several real-life case studies; discussions of HPPD's link to psychosis, alcohol abuse and suicide; and what the condition may mean for the promise of future psychedelic research. You can read it on The Independent here: https://www.independent.co.uk/independentpremium/long-reads/netflix-good-bad-trip-lsd-psychedelics-never-wears-off-a9533136.html It's beh
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  4. Hi all This forum doesn’t seem to be too active anymore but I’m desperate and will post anyway heh So, I seem to have developed HPPD from a single pill of ecstasy/mdma mixed with weed about 5 weeks ago. Since then, symptoms have gradually showed up and worsened. I have every VSS symptom, such as: snow, tracers, halos, starbursts, floaters, afterimages, etc. From reading on here it seems like those with LSD and Shroom induced HPPD have an easier go at it at recovering... it’s making me feel really down and hopeless. I think I’m going to be stuck with this shit forever
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  5. Hey everyone, it's been a long time since I came back to this forum, haven't come on here in a while since I completely forgot about my HPPD for a bit. I've laid off all drugs and alcohol (even caffeine) for at least the past year and I feel pretty good. My symptoms are almost nonexistent, the one thing that's still around is the visual snow but I also don't notice it unless I try or if I'm looking at a solid color. From what I've gathered from some facebook users that got HPPD from the same drug I did (nBOME), the visual snow is there to stay but it's honestly fine at this point. The only thi
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  6. Nice to meet you Garris, my name is Nick. Welcome to the forum and thank you for replying to my earlier post, I appreciate your input. You will find many experienced, honest and kind people on this forum and we look forward to getting to know you. Take Care!
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  7. Hi, I am a new member of this forum, I hope you are all well. 3 years ago, I took LSD for the first (and only) time. My trip was not entirely bad, and for the first few weeks after it, I didn't really have any issues. I continued to recreationally take MDMA and ketamine in social settings with no effects. However, after 2 months, I smoked weed, and it felt like I was back in a trip. This brought on a panic attack and intense anxiety. It seemed to had triggered something in my brain as taking MDMA/ketamine after that also made me feel as if I was in a trip mentally and would result in real
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  8. I smoked on and off for the past few years, have had HPPD and pretty significant visuals for 20 years. I didn't even THINK about smoking weed until like... 15 years in. It definitely has the potential to trigger some high anxiety, depending on how you cope with that, i mean... it's your body, your choice. Your mind too, lol. I started toking again because I enjoyed gigging while stoned. But never, ever, has it felt like it used to, where it would relax me. Actually, there were many times i'd have full blown psychosis, this was helpful in certain situations (like editing, writing, or
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  9. Here guys. I wrote this in the hard time of my life. HPPD, school problems , personal ones. My style changed since then, but It means a whole lot to me and it gave me strength to go on. And I hope it will help you too. I am alone, But was I ever not so? I am losing battles, But did I ever really win? Fate's a cruel thing without a doubt, Or was it me who made life taste like spoiled milk? You can make me doubt myself But what you can't, is break me. And no one can, And no one will, But please, I beg you, don't forget m
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  10. if you're 37 and you made a recovery from your 20s; In my opinion you are well-qualified to recover again. Fear is the mindkiller as is said in the dune series. Practice breathing, take a walk, let your visuals take over, you may find they aren't that powerful. I had 20 years or so of "no symptoms" but what that really means to me is that i ignored them successfully for that long. Earlier this month i did something totally nuts, and took .2 g of psylicibin cubensis, usually not enough for a full on trip. but now i've got some recovering to do myself. the anxiety is what se
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  11. Well, listen, considering that u didn’t even get high and that u noticed change in ur hppd few days later, I think it’s very unlikely that the weed did smth. Look up the forums. Ppl say that smoking does make it worse but ofc that get high and start seeing the change in hppd almost str8 away. U mentioned trails. So what happened was that u got the trails and then u started feeling anxious and had dp/dr? That would Ofc mean that it’s not hppd per say but a neurotic reaction to the trails. Apart from weed, was there anything else? Maybe some psychological stuff?
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  12. Risperidone is a No No for hppd. In the farmacology section of Risperidone is actually a inverse agonist of the 5ht2a receptor ( the one that we think hppd is affected ) That means that it actually bind to the receptor without producing any effect. But to some already sensitive 5ht2a receptors this is actually wrong,because in such scenario activation seems to happen. I know because i was given risperidone and symptoms worsened. Stay away from that stuff. Is such a cheap and strong medication that's why they give it so much but it actually is dirt, there are other wa
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  13. Sounds like most of your issues are coming from the meds... I would taper down and just live a totally clean life for a while, get to understand your illness, see what makes you worse/better, try to de-stress etc Remember, saying no to a doctor is your absolute right.
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  14. If you give yourself more time to heal I think there's a good chance symptoms will become more stable. Not to say they don't vary but the frequency (at least for me) of intensification has gone down over time. I can still flare up from anxiety and lack of sleep but meditation has helped with that. I wouldn't read too much into your day to day progress this early, just go with it and know as long as you stay of drugs the symptoms will likely recede. Good luck!
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  15. Based off your reaction I would advise you do not take any more. most people with hppd do not respond well to antipsychotics. They often effect dopamine (maybe positive) but also they interact with the 5ht2a receptor. I am sure this is very intense feeling. You are going to get better with time and total drug abstinence. Do this for a few years (I know it must seem like a long time but it is not). you are lucky— you are young and the brain can heal at your age very quickly compared to when you are older. the only drugs I can think to recommend very early
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  16. Hi Justan— I just want to add that the brain is highly plastic at your age I know it sounds really dumb when “adults” say you shouldn’t drink and do drugs until a certain age but that is because your brain is actually still developing hahah. What adults should add, after that, is if you wait to do these things until your brain has cemented a bit, you will have a more enjoyable experience with substances over the whole of your life, and more likely (and most importantly to me) a greater baseline happiness. do you have hppd? No one here can tell for certain if you have or are s
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  17. Hey guys month 6 hppd journey things are better now. I have very rare visuals,but it's mostly visual snow and tinnitus. I found and i'm trying a herb which takes 8 to 12 weeks to work but might solve my problems finally. Its name is bacopa monnieri. One of the only herbs known to upregulate gaba receptors. Currently i use lemon balm and with increased usage i see my tinnitus quiets down and my visual snow is less. Lemon balm, Melissa officinalis, is an annual edible herb that’s native to Europe. Its traditional medical applications focus on the essential oil components
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  18. Hi there, My name is Alex, I'm a third-year psychology student at University Greenwich (London, UK). Although I don't have HPPD, I'm very interested in understanding more about it. As such, my final-year research project is a survey investigating individual differences and HPPD. My research project is under the supervision of Dr. David Luke, a long-standing psychedelic researcher in the UK and author of many books on the subject. Dr. Luke is a senior lecturer at University of Greenwich and honorary senior lecturer at Imperial College London - the home of the bulk of psychedeli
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  19. Hi there, My name is Alex, I'm a third-year psychology student at University Greenwich (London, UK). Although I don't have HPPD, I'm very interested in understanding more about it. As such, my final-year research project is a survey investigating individual differences and HPPD. My research project is under the supervision of Dr. David Luke, a long-standing psychedelic researcher in the UK and author of many books on the subject. Dr. Luke is a senior lecturer at University of Greenwich and honorary senior lecturer at Imperial College London - the home of the bulk of psychedeli
    2 points
  20. StuffThatWorks is a research database founded in 2018 that provides insights on chronic disorders. The sufferers of the disorders provide various data such as their symptoms and the treatments they have tried. StuffThatWorks recently created a database for HPPD. If enough people join the community and answer questions, their machine learning algorithms will discover potential treatments for HPPD based on the trends in data. They will also find other things such as triggers, demographics, comorbidities, and early warning signs of HPPD. StuffThatWorks could also possibly provide data to med
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  21. We are now in a very strange world where if someone doesn't like X, it can be waved away as fake. It's the perfect stretch in reality for the person, as anyone who claims that X is real is also part of what makes it fake.
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  22. Hello, everyone, I will try to tell my story as authentically as possible - but what I can say is that I am cured (in a sense)! And I am writing today because I would have liked to read more positive stories when I was at my worst:) I am joining the community to share my experience and give support when possible. Drugs before HPPD – I had my first joint when I was 14. And I smoked a lot since then. Between 15 and 17 - I smoked almost every day. I graduated from high school when I was 17 and moved to another city. There, I tried Mdma and cocaine (I had just turned 18) - I re
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  23. Hey, I hope you're well. I do meditate and find it to be very helpful. For me it reduces anxiety and anything that does that will help with my HPPD. I have found that sticking to a regular schedule (at least once per day) with a comfortable position, over time provided some wonderful benefits. These include increased feelings of wellbeing, better memory and increased energy to name a few. As far as whether it will aggravate the symptoms, I wouldn't worry about that. If it does it's only temporary and in the long run is likely to do more good than harm. Also I have found that a
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  24. Yes I definitely have a habit of staring at stuff on days when the visual snow / lights & color changes / static lines / strobe light effect are worse (usually the day after drinking, or if I've had too much caffeine). The best way I get around this is by doing tasks that are simple, habitual, and that require some thought and action (so not just watching tv, at least for me), but not TOO much thought since the days when the visual snow are worse are often accompanied by brain fog. A common task I go to is cleaning. I put on a background podcast too that I may or may not listen to,
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  25. Hi all, I was a part of this community many years ago as a wee lad when my symptoms first began to settle. I thought I'd login to post an update as to the current mental state I'm in, what recovery (as good as can be) is like, and what you can expect if you're relatively new to HPPD. I first had HPPD symptoms after taking a one-time dose of mushrooms, I believe around 2 grams; the initial trip went fine, in-fact it was quite a lot of fun. After coming down, I didn't feel normal.. I felt strange, odd, different, but couldn't pinpoint what it was. It was like something had clicked, snapped,
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  26. Hello, I just made an account here. It's very bad. I wish I would be exaggerating but the amount of pain I am going through is unbelievable and I simply can't take it anymore. I have had mild HPPD for 2-3 years. It wasn't even that mild but I saw spiritual meaning in it and I actually enjoyed it. Well for the most part. Things got bad 8 months ago when I experienced a huge panic attack on LSD. I had Xanax and that drug literally saved my life that day. But next day I woke up feeling so anxious, hyperaware, it felt like the trip didn't even end. I ended up in the ER a couple days a
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  27. Maybe it's a good thing to let /hppd have all the "hey, i've had hppd for 26.5 hours now and was thinking about combining LSD and crack while shoving salvia up my ass, will this make me better or worse" posters
    2 points
  28. I get eye floaters only when looking outside or very bright rooms, though I do not associate my floaters with my HPPD/Visual Snow Syndrome because I’ve always had them. Quitting marijuana causes anxiety and many bizarre withdrawal symptoms. After 40 days that should have began diminishing dramatically. I’d say you’d have noticed these symptoms during the early stages of marijuana withdrawal and are looking for them more, which in turn is creating further anxiety and exaggerating common disturbances that have always been there. Floaters are fairly common, especially with age. Go get your eyes
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  29. This magnificent disorder has been introduced to me around the end of 2017. I took throughout my "psychonaut" part of life 4-5 tabs of LSD. These didn't trigger any HPPD. The disorder kicked in once I started microdosing. I have probably microdosed around 5 times, not more than once per week. Now, we could debate about how bad it was for my brain to microdose but the real issue was the weed + microdose mix. Since microdosing boosts your brain to unimaginable levels (I have ADHD as well), it was difficult to sleep each day I'd microdose. To ease myself into sleep, I'd smoke a joint, u
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  30. Wow. There is no excuse for being mean. If someone posts a link you don't agree with, perhaps you could help them understand why you disagree with the article. We don't want people to stop sharing information because it doesn't meet some intellectual hurdle. If you disagree, explain why instead of taking a virtual swipe at someone. We're here to help one another, cutting people down doesn't accomplish that.
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  31. Hello guys,PS: this post could be of serious relevance to anyone who has visual snow, palinopsia, migrane aura, or any other related visual condition. Here is a link to the video that I'll be mentioning throughout: I had been suffering from incredibly intense, full-blown palinopsia for 4 years and it finally reached a stage of severity where I was simply unable to cope. So one night I went about my usual bi-annual researching of Googling "how to cure palinopsia" in a desperate attempt to see if there had been any updates or success stories since my last search. I stumbled across this YouTube v
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  32. Great to meet you as well brother, and thank you for reading my greeting post and my reply to your post, and for replying... I'm very excited about this whole forum and site, after just recently recovering from being in severe pain and being very ill I am finding my mind working better then it has in some time now so I decided to disseminate as much information to as many people that will listen now so that I get some of it out of my head just in case my mind clutters and fogs up again... It's also awesome to see that David S. Kozin is the creator, thank you so much David, I hope you're doing
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  33. I am 40. I was at first very anxious. But stabilized myself with rest, lots of vitamins and forcing myself to do things. Also not fighting the visuals and letting them try and take over helps me, I think of it like surrendering to a demon, once I surrender to it, it is not powerful at all. It has been only somewhat disruptive, never would i have thought i'd try psylicibin again, but on the off chance i thought it might help, with all the wonderful news about microdosing, i tried. The trip itself was quite manageable, however, afterwards, the lingerings are troublesome. I am pretty
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  34. Hey there, My name is Bill 22yo and I'm new to this forum. I was a heavy drug user during my teens (16-19yo). I took lots of Ecstasy, LSD, Ketamine, Coke and other research compounds. Starting from 3 years ago I totally decided to change my life. Stopped taking most substances, started to exercise more, meditate, eat healthy and use different supplements and biohacking tools to heal and recover. Since then, I only had a couple of trips and few micro doses of LSD in a spiritual and therapeutic context. Last Thursday, I decided to take 1.5mg (Micro dose) of 4-ACO DMT (Synthetic shrooms) after on
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  35. Hey what’s up man. I also got hppd in the summer of 2016. Been one hell of a ride and yeah it’s gone down a lot for me too. The first 2 years were the hardest. I’m 23 now and I really only notice visual snow and brain fog, occasional tracers but only if I’m looking at something bright.
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  36. I'm VERY new to HPPD despite having it since I was 18 (I'm 44 now). I'm extremely confused, and will spend a bit of time on this site trying to get my bearings. Why am I confused? I suppose I'm trying to understand the different symptoms people are exhibiting and line them up with my own. I'm also trying to figure out if some of you are going through a Kundalini Awakening, but are unaware like I was. It started when my best friend turned to me one day and said, "Here it comes again", and it felt like I (we) sank into the earth. I was never the same again. I had to confess to my
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  37. When I was in benzo withdrawal, cbd didn’t agree with me. Recently, my friend also stated as much. I have recently written a little bit on the site about my experience with cannabinoids in states of kindling from gaba drugs. While not in kindling I am fine. When I am in kindling all of them induce panic. at the moment, I am taking in very small amounts of cannabinoids. I think it’s very much a ymmv kind of thing as I’ve taken a gram in a day before and recently had periods where I couldn’t tolerate it at all. I suggest that if it worsens your symptoms and doesn’t feel good,
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  38. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27046518/#:~:text=Glial cells such as microglia,to the extrasynaptic NMDA receptor. https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fnmol.2018.00414/full https://www.nature.com/articles/npp2016199 https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S2666354619300353 https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0197018613000363 https://www.mdpi.com/2073-4409/8/2/184/htm Just posting these for future reference and reading. It would appear that there is a possibility of glial cell dysfunction leading to increased levels of glutama
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  39. Hi, First I'd visit a Doctor to rule out other possibilities, just to be safe. If you do have HPPD, there isn't a cure per-se, but there are ways of managing it, and if you search the forum you'll find accounts of people who've had it go away over time, and others that claim success with specific treatments and techniques. Minimizing stress, focusing on things you enjoy doing that aren't too visually stimulating, have a good diet, get proper vitamin intake, and obviously stay away from all drugs. IMO, Clonazepam is the best medication for HPPD, with the most research backing it
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  40. Yah, completely agree, and this is a good study to present. There are parameters involving over excitability in traumatic brain injuries, which is mainly what this study focuses on it seems. There are other parameters involved, as not all forms of epilepsy or tinnitus appear only from blunt trauma, etc, so the findings aren't exclusive to neuronal loss. Again I'm not entirely ruling out neuronal loss, and there definitely seems to be some kind of connection involved with hyperexcitability and neuronal loss, but we do have studies that show the chemicals that cause HPPD aren't exactly proven to
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  41. I apologize for the long delay in response, I’ve had a lot change in my life recently and I stepped away from online forums for awhile. I no longer have contact with my mother. The last time that I spoke to her was about three years ago and she blamed me for what she had done. She was investigated when I was much younger, but I was under her influence and I refused to give a statement to the social workers. I truly believe that she is still a danger to others as she remains in contact with some of my nieces and nephews, but the only thing that my counselor could do was issue regular wellness c
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  42. I'm not surprised, pro-psychedelic cocksuckers not believing it. You know what? Fuck them, right in the ass. Let them continue their psychedelic use until they get it themselves. It's called karma. *Edit* I went a bit overboard, deleted the worst of it
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  43. Hey guys! I'm currently evolving HPPD and like to introduce myself. Will try to describe my case here as best as possible and update the course of my disease (I won't be one of these guys not responding / updating anymore in case it gets better ). Primary Intoxication Causing HPPD: Bad Trip, caused by LSD 250ug, Cannabis ~ 1g about 8 hours after LSD (April 2019). After 6 hours of anxiety, trip aborted with 10mg Diazepam. HPPD Trigger: One night of sleep deprivation few weeks later. Anamnese: - No psychological issues before developing HPPD, mood was always fin
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  44. Ah right, ill keep that in mind. Thank you for the information
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  45. It's been hppdonline for at least 12 years now, maybe 15... A lot of the data was lost about 7 years ago, sadly. It was a bit like one of those fidget spinner things... Probably someone with a similar username.
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  46. Interesting responses. I'll need to do more research, as it's been years since I've done any. I wish I understood why some of my HPPD symptoms are coming back, I remember coming here around 2012 announcing that I no longer have it. I guess the clonazepam was just really effective at covering up the symptoms, but it's still there As for reddit, I have a number of issues with that site anyway at this point, so I simply deleted my account there. Nothing specific to r/HPPD, just reddit in general seems to have lots of over-opinionated trolls.
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  47. -Pins and needles whole body -sometimes nubmness in face, toes -muscle twitching -sound sensitivity
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  48. Hey guys, Ive been reluctant to get on here just because honestly it makes me anxious. ive felt like ive owed it to new sufferers for a while so here I am. My HPPD was actually triggered while reading peoples stories on the site, so thats why it makes me anxious to come on here. First thing I can say is...CUT ALL CAFFEINE AND DRUGS. Furthermore, many people experience a worsening of symptoms due to the cortisol response of stress. NOTHING makes my symptoms worse than stress, especially as far as DP. I know it's hard, but you can do it. I have been on Keppra for about 4 years and have
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  49. What I forgot to say is if people in the 60s had a very very pure substance then 2000 mics would be conceivable. 1000 of the stuff I had in the early 70s would have been unthinkable. 1000 of the "university" batch that came later was very "doable". I'm wondering if the doses I had in high school were really impure or adulterated with something nasty. A lot of them had some sort of speed "included". That was the stuff that started my hppd. The clean "material" I got later didn't seem to make hppd any worse. It was different.
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  50. Something that makes me feel better is when I see inspirational people with horrendous illnesses and diseases who make the most of their lives and have such passion for life it makes me remember things can always be worse and gives me a better outlook if they can live a happy life then so can I Also I'd suggest thinking really positively if you can if you think you can heal there's a bigger chance you will it's been scientifically proven people who have something to get better for get better quick so look to the future also I've also found reading to be really helpful As Jay said exercis
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