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  1. Hi all This forum doesn’t seem to be too active anymore but I’m desperate and will post anyway heh So, I seem to have developed HPPD from a single pill of ecstasy/mdma mixed with weed about 5 weeks ago. Since then, symptoms have gradually showed up and worsened. I have every VSS symptom, such as: snow, tracers, halos, starbursts, floaters, afterimages, etc. From reading on here it seems like those with LSD and Shroom induced HPPD have an easier go at it at recovering... it’s making me feel really down and hopeless. I think I’m going to be stuck with this shit forever
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  2. Hey everyone, it's been a long time since I came back to this forum, haven't come on here in a while since I completely forgot about my HPPD for a bit. I've laid off all drugs and alcohol (even caffeine) for at least the past year and I feel pretty good. My symptoms are almost nonexistent, the one thing that's still around is the visual snow but I also don't notice it unless I try or if I'm looking at a solid color. From what I've gathered from some facebook users that got HPPD from the same drug I did (nBOME), the visual snow is there to stay but it's honestly fine at this point. The only thi
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  3. Nice to meet you Garris, my name is Nick. Welcome to the forum and thank you for replying to my earlier post, I appreciate your input. You will find many experienced, honest and kind people on this forum and we look forward to getting to know you. Take Care!
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  5. Ok, I’ve been working on this for years and do believe i know the exact mechanisms occurring in patients suffering from HPPD. It is quite similar to most mental derangements including epilepsy, migraines, and especially schizophrenia. Essentially what occurs is the patient uses a hallucinogen(obviously), which in turn overstimulates certain areas of the brain. Strikingly there appears to be little to no evidence for neuronal loss, so we must look deeper, where we will find the mitochondria. The mitochondria are dense in neurons and the main suppliers of energy, but also of free radicals. When
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  6. So, I’m almost a month into some mild HPPD(vs, trails, dpdr), and although it has been extremely distressing, I can’t help but see some benefits as a creative person interested in the human experience. I’d say my creative abilities have increased pretty noticeably since my onset; I think the dpdr allows for far greater visualization and contemplation that really helps to take an objective perspective on life. I have always been into many different creative areas like fashion, art, architecture, furniture, photography, and even some tech design, so those things have also served as very eff
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  7. I have used it once at a very low dose and didn’t notice anything. But I was also smoking a bunch of weed at the time hehe... hmm never feeling awake? I would do a little research first but it would be very interesting to see if you react well to a dose of prednisone. I’ve been wondering if acute stage hppd could be neuro inflammatory/neuro immune. But it’s really just a theory. Been wondering about the connection between cannabinoids and encephalopathy which does exist. I would try what your doctor gave you first, of course I’m sure it feels kinda scary to try something
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  8. Hello everyone. Recently I have been struggling with the idea of incorporating small doses of cannabis in my regiment to help with anxiety and to stimulate creativity and introspection. I have been fully sober for 2.5 years off hallucinogens, weed and alcohol. I consider myself to have made a full recovery with respect to HPPD (still lingering visuals but they are not noticeable). I am currently under a great deal of stress and think a little weed could help calm me down. I currently take an SSRI and have with success for about 2.5 years. I am in a position to get a medical marijuana car
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  9. Hey everyone, I thought i would provide an update. Since starting the experiment, I have ingested a low dose edible on three occasions. First 2.5mg THC, second 6mg, third 6mg. Each spaced about 1 week apart. I think my body is telling me to stop as the visuals have intensified (I think) and there is a little DR/DP. I'm not sure this was a very intelligent decision but at the time I felt desperate for some type of relief. I think I am going to go back to full sobriety. If anyone has any questions about what happened and the experiences I am willing to chat about them. I
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  10. Thanks to everyone who took the time to complete the survey. The paper is being written up for submission as per course requirements, and hopefully subsequent publication in some form or another. Thanks. Alex
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  11. The first time I got it I didn’t realize I had it, tbh. Symptoms subsided within 6 months if I remember correctly. yymv but I was using harder drugs than you and I imagine that is in your favor. Some symptoms may take longer to go away than others. Don’t assume one is linked to the other. Different brain regions, different rates of recovery time, different symptoms etc. Most of my visuals have subsided in intensity over the years. Some aspects of them gone. I did a LOT OF DRUG man so don’t sweat it. If mine got better you’re will absolutely get better. You’re on the right track. Man
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  12. After having Epstein Barr enter my brain recently and cause a lot of crazy symptoms I associate with hppd, I’m seriously wondering about possible viral components to this disorder. 95% of people have this virus in them. It can resurface, albeit its “rare” (I’ve had it twice last 4 years... last time I thought I was losing my mind but the doctor didn’t inform me. I simply found out via blood tests.) Psychedelics influence the immune system/would make it easier for latent https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4500993/ EBV can cause hallucin
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  13. Or rather, HPPD is caused by someone NOT being infected with the JC virus. Ok, I'm not a doctor and all that, but you guys seem to like sharing theories on these things, so here is my theory (note: no science at all to back this up)! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/JC_virus The JC virus is very common in humans - it also causes persistent infection, where it is always present in the body, but unless you are immunosuppressed (e.g. AIDS) it doesn't cause any symptoms. It is normally completely benign. This article; http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1617318/ states
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  14. Hi Everyone! It's very rare for me to use online forums however due to this disorder being so rare I thought it'd be the best way to meet new people who have experienced similar things. My name is Neve, I am 18 years old and currently a University student in England. I've never been that adventurous with drugs and up until university I had only ever touched weed, even then it only being a round 5 times (first time being 15 years old). When I started university, naturally, I became more exposed to drugs and tried LSD for the first time and again a week later. Both trips I really enjo
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  15. The blurry vision and visual snow did go away completely both times. The effects that lingered then and I still experience now are moving surfaces, swirling patterns etc. This is likely an artifact of LSD. Yes, the anxiety can be debilitating, sometimes I think this disorder is primarily centered around anxiety. I have distortions which produce anxiety which make the distortions worse which makes the anxiety worse etc... I think the brain fog is also from anxiety, anxiety produces cortisol which hinders cognition. Just try and occupy your time somehow, I played lots of chess and exercised
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  16. My dreams have been a nightmare since i got HPPD 4 weeks ago as well, they are so intense that i have been waking up with 10/10 anxiety every day since this started. I thought i knew what hell was like, but HPPD proved me wrong.
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  17. I understand man, I will say that for me even though it may seem like it did, HPPD had zero effect on my intelligence. I will tell you (not to worry you) but benzos do come with a warning of long-term side-effects to include addiction and they're not great for the brain... Just keep those in mind. I do also highly recommend trying to incorporate meditation into your life. It really helped me with intrusive thoughts, anxiety and overall well being. Plus it's been shown to be good for your brain! If you want to talk about getting started with meditation that let me know. Take c
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  18. Hello, I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling with this disorder. I am not a doctor but I have been on an SSRI for years and had very good success with remission of symptoms. To me, what makes sense is for you to not change anything and just give it time (again I am not a doctor). I tell everyone the same simple advice that worked for me early on: Stop all drugs (even alcohol for a but if you can) Get as much sleep as you can Exercise regularly even if it makes your symptoms worse Eat well Stay busy with work/ school/ hobby etc Try not to wo
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  19. Hello, I'm sorry to hear how much you're struggling. I myself contracted HPPD from excessive LSD and mushroom use but from what I have heard there are many cases of people recovering from MDMA use as well. You're still very early in your recovery, I know it might not seem like it but your best friend will be time. Also, you very young with a short history of drug use so I would say your chances of full recovery are pretty high. I tell everyone the same thing: Stop all drugs (even alcohol for a but if you can) Get as much sleep as you can Exercise regularly even if
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  20. Great to meet you as well brother, and thank you for reading my greeting post and my reply to your post, and for replying... I'm very excited about this whole forum and site, after just recently recovering from being in severe pain and being very ill I am finding my mind working better then it has in some time now so I decided to disseminate as much information to as many people that will listen now so that I get some of it out of my head just in case my mind clutters and fogs up again... It's also awesome to see that David S. Kozin is the creator, thank you so much David, I hope you're doing
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  21. Hey everyone, this is my 1st time visiting this site so I decided to introduce myself in hopes of finding anyone and everyone willing to talk with me about all things HPPD. I've been living with HPPD for over 15 years now with absolutely no access to any medical professionals who have even the slight understanding or actual knowledge of what I am going through, and worst of all they don't even know any truthful knowledge of hallucinogenic substances what so ever... Thank you for taking the time to read this and I hope to find others to listen to, to talk with, and most of all to exchange new a
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  22. Fear is not real, it is only a trick. And with a 1000% certainty I will say that from my personal experience with risperidone and a couple other psych meds combined with my intuition that the risperidone definitely needed to be stopped, as it can cause the symptoms you were having, and seroquel can cause them too. Also one of the most important details that helps a Dr determine between a diagnosis of HPPD and delusional psychosis is that people with HPPD are aware that what they are experiencing isn't real, which in turn can also exacerbate the symptoms of HPPD and possibly pushing one into a
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  23. Hi. I'm 57 years old and I've carried a deep secret most of my life. I see visual patterns everywhere. They are most prominent in anything with a fine grain. Tar, sand, carpets, curtains, textured ceilings ... you get the idea. I see patterns, shapes, designs, animals, faces, Aztec glyphs, etc. as if intentionally created by an artist. They're not static either. The slowly move, shift, and transform. If I'm looking at a wall I "know" it's a wall. I don't believe the hallucinations are actually visible to anyone else so I guess I'm sane. How did this happen? Just before my
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  24. part of it is about wanting to get high again and chasing a time when weed worked for me. Thanks for your response.
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  25. Hey, i'm sorry to hear about your struggle. I really recommend you Klonopin. There are alot of succes stories about that medicine for HPPD. But discuss this with your psychiatrist. And make sure to use it safely as you don't want to be dependant.
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  26. if you're 37 and you made a recovery from your 20s; In my opinion you are well-qualified to recover again. Fear is the mindkiller as is said in the dune series. Practice breathing, take a walk, let your visuals take over, you may find they aren't that powerful. I had 20 years or so of "no symptoms" but what that really means to me is that i ignored them successfully for that long. Earlier this month i did something totally nuts, and took .2 g of psylicibin cubensis, usually not enough for a full on trip. but now i've got some recovering to do myself. the anxiety is what se
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  27. Well, listen, considering that u didn’t even get high and that u noticed change in ur hppd few days later, I think it’s very unlikely that the weed did smth. Look up the forums. Ppl say that smoking does make it worse but ofc that get high and start seeing the change in hppd almost str8 away. U mentioned trails. So what happened was that u got the trails and then u started feeling anxious and had dp/dr? That would Ofc mean that it’s not hppd per say but a neurotic reaction to the trails. Apart from weed, was there anything else? Maybe some psychological stuff?
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  28. Risperidone is a No No for hppd. In the farmacology section of Risperidone is actually a inverse agonist of the 5ht2a receptor ( the one that we think hppd is affected ) That means that it actually bind to the receptor without producing any effect. But to some already sensitive 5ht2a receptors this is actually wrong,because in such scenario activation seems to happen. I know because i was given risperidone and symptoms worsened. Stay away from that stuff. Is such a cheap and strong medication that's why they give it so much but it actually is dirt, there are other wa
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  29. Sounds like most of your issues are coming from the meds... I would taper down and just live a totally clean life for a while, get to understand your illness, see what makes you worse/better, try to de-stress etc Remember, saying no to a doctor is your absolute right.
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  30. Hey Allen, First off, Congrats on the little one on the way buddy! As a father of two little ones I just wanted to assure you that In no way will HPPD determine the type of parent you are. I enjoy every second with my girls and they adore me. Now it may take me a little longer to read them bedtime stories with the text vibrating and all but they just think daddy is a slow reader lol. Best of luck with the meds, I unfortunately have never had any luck with them. I have a great career in the medical field and a wonderful family. HPPD sucks but I learned a while ago it doesn’t have to dicta
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  31. You mention muscle tightness, causing sharp pains. Weird. I originally noticed/got my HPPD 2 weeks after I quit my smoking habit 15+ bowls a day, 2 years on maybe, I'm young. Anyways, I was getting really sharp pains up my flanks and in my chest, Doctors thought it was a viral thing, it was the reason I stopped smoking, I feared it was lungs. Anyways I went to deep needle therapy for the pain and she said muscle /diaphragm tightness and said drink heaps of water, deep breathing and magnesium, It eventually went away. But I thought it was completed unrelated to HPPD, maybe it wasn't.
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  32. -Pins and needles whole body -sometimes nubmness in face, toes -muscle twitching -sound sensitivity
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  33. Bit like going on a recovering alcoholics forum and posting vids of you necking whiskey. Hard to not feel like we are being trolled. I hope you are not doing severe damage and that you can get passed this. Good luck, Jay
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  34. Your video has been removed on the grounds of copyright You are smoking a joint in the thumb nail. You have posted videos Of you on acid and mushrooms. And to be honest no cares what you have to say when you are in this self destructive state of mind. Post a real video with helpful information and people will care and comment back.
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  35. Greetings ZenLoops My Apologies for the intrusion of being late. I will go straight at it, and say that I honor you for your great achievement, because what is your true purpose in life? If you cant attract meaning in your life. And here I am with "lucky coincidences, right" with a thought that maybe there a post about a guy who found out to morph their "HPPD" into a powerful tool to reduce/kill their ego/or most of it. They can finally act freely without being restricting by the control rod of the ego. If a person learns to gain control over their wild running -toolkit(HPPD) or should I
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  36. Hello everyone, I am a 21 year old guy, and I got HPPD 6 months ago after a very intense trip on a substance I still cannot identify. My story was in a quite different context, which is the reason I believe my HPPD experience was very different from others on the forum, especially how I interpret the disorder. I started doing drugs at 19, from MDMA to LSD to Shrooms to DOB and 2CB, and the same thing used to always fascinate me. There was this "missing piece" in the puzzle of life that was always being seen during these experiences, but fades out after the trip is over. Through later research
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  37. What I forgot to say is if people in the 60s had a very very pure substance then 2000 mics would be conceivable. 1000 of the stuff I had in the early 70s would have been unthinkable. 1000 of the "university" batch that came later was very "doable". I'm wondering if the doses I had in high school were really impure or adulterated with something nasty. A lot of them had some sort of speed "included". That was the stuff that started my hppd. The clean "material" I got later didn't seem to make hppd any worse. It was different.
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